Day 6
Dear Bambam,
Something feels off today. Not in a way that I can put my finger on—just an unsettling shift, like the world has tilted a fraction of a degree off its axis. It’s the same routine as always: wake up, exchange a few words with my boyfriend, let the comfort of familiarity wrap around me like a soft cocoon. But beneath it, something stirs. A whisper of something more.
The day ahead is mapped out, every task neatly slotted into place. Study cardiovascular physiology. Revise immunology. Prepare for another tutorial session. Teach. Learn. Repeat. A rhythm I know well, yet today, it feels different—like I’m standing at the edge of something unseen.
Maybe it’s the weight of everything, the knowledge that each step forward pulls me deeper into something bigger than myself. Maybe it’s the way my mind is always searching for more—more understanding, more meaning, more insight into the hidden stories that people carry. I’ve always been drawn to that, haven’t I? To the unseen, the unspoken, the intricate web of life that others barely notice. And yet, even I sometimes wonder—what if I’m missing something?
As I prepare for my tutorial, a strange thought crosses my mind. What if today is the day something unexpected happens? Not in the ordinary way, like forgetting a concept or stumbling over my words—but something truly out of place. A question from a student that shakes my confidence. A realization that changes the way I see my own knowledge. Or maybe something even deeper, something waiting in the quiet spaces of the day, just beyond my line of sight.
It’s a strange thing, knowing so much yet still feeling like I’m only scratching the surface. You know me, Bambam. You know how my mind works, how I chase after knowledge like a detective chasing clues. But today, I can’t shake the feeling that knowledge is chasing me.
By the time night falls, will I have unraveled the mystery of this feeling? Or will it linger, a puzzle piece that doesn’t quite fit, waiting for its moment to make sense?
Only time will tell.
Until then,
B.