As I venture around what I could read your blog caught my attention. I have also experienced how hard life is and I truly appreciate you shared this one, for every one who could read this blog please take care of yourselves. Incase your feeling down just pray, if your sad learn to do other things that will keep you going. lastly Jamil's right always choose people that truly understands you without them you will never know true friendship. Life really is not that easy there are no shortcuts as what my late grandfather would say "Never waste your life being surrounded by negativity explore and get out of your shell, you can do it."