Perfect on the Outside, Heavy on the Inside [Ilocano/English Sub]

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Nagado iti pangarap ko nga balay idi ubingak ta nag bassit lang gamin iti balay mi. Nagado iti inshare ko ditoy edi nga about jay balay mi edi ubingak ken mabasa yu ata ditoy ayan nga post. Ngem nu madi yu nga mabisita ata nga post, ishort cut ko lattan. Iti balay mi edi ket aramid lang iti simple nga materyales. Mahirap kami lang gamin edi ngem mayat met ti panag-byag mi ta kompleto kami pay nga pamilya.

I had many dreams about the kind of house I wanted when I was a child, because our house back then was very small. I’ve shared a lot here before about our house when I was young, and maybe you’ve already read that post. But if you haven’t, I’ll give you a shortcut. Our house back then was built only from simple materials. We were poor, but life was still good because we were complete as a family.

Atoy nga balay nga paggya-gyanan mi tatta, haan mi nga balay nga talaga. Balay lang ti Lolo ken Lola mi ta sipod edi nagsina da Nanang ken Tatang ko, ditoy kamin nga nag-gyan ni Manang ko. Mayat met iti balay da ta gawa iti semento, naglawa nga balay ken makitam talaga nga adda kaya iti Pamilya ni Nanang ko edi balasang suna. Kumpara jay kenni Tatang mi ta puro da awan makaykaya na isu nga mas pinili ni Nanang ko nga ipaalaga kami ni Manang ko ditoy puder da Lola mi ta mas ammo na nga safe kami nga agkabsat ta maalagaan da kami nga nasyaat.

The house we are living in now is not really our own. It’s the house of my grandparents, because ever since my mother and father separated, my sister and I have been living here. Their house is nice because it’s made of cement, it’s spacious, and you can really see that my mother’s family was well-off when she was still young. Compared to my father’s side, who had almost nothing, that’s why my mother chose for my sister and me to stay here with our grandparents—because she knew it was safer for us siblings and that we would be well taken care of.

Iti kayat ko nga balay edi ubingak ket adda second floor na. Awan lang, naimpluwensyahan ak gamin iti drama-drama nga mabuybuya idjay TV. Ngem tatta, himabali iti kayat kon nga pang-pangarapek nga balay ta naexperience ko met ti aglinis ti uneg balayen ken nag-rigat ta matrabaho met gayam. Isu nga kayat ko lang tattan ket kasla met lang kenda Lola mi. Kayat ko iti maysa lang nga floor nga balay ngem adda duwa na nga kwarto. Haan met nga sobrang garbo ah nga pumanakpak ti kayamanan ngem kayat ko lang jay nawaya nga kitaen.

The kind of house I wanted when I was a child was one with a second floor. I guess I was just influenced by the dramas I used to watch on TV. But now, my dream house has changed, because I’ve experienced cleaning inside a house and realized how tiring it actually is. That’s why what I want now is similar to my grandparents’ house. I just want a single-story house with two rooms. Nothing too luxurious or flashy that would show off wealth—just something simple, with a sense of space and freedom.

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Edi haan nga kasta talaga iti balay da Lolo ken Lola mi. Nasemento lang ken mai taytayab ti yero nu agbagyo. Awan pay harang na iti kwarkwarto ken cabinet mi lang nga daan ti us usaren mi. Ngem edi high school ak pina tirimaan ni Auntie'k nga adda jay abroad nga maikadwa nga anak da Lolak atoy balay da. Ngem haan nga amin ta adda met iti tulong mi ni Mamak ta pina lapitada mi ni Mamak jay ayan ti Terrace ken ditoy kwar-kwarto.

Back then, my grandparents’ house didn’t really look like that. It was just cemented, and the roof was only galvanized iron that could be blown during storms. There were no dividers in the rooms, and we only used old cabinets as partitions. But when I was in high school, my aunt—who is the second child of my grandparents and working abroad—had the house renovated. Still, it wasn’t entirely her contribution, because my mom and I helped have the walls in the terrace and the rooms plastered back when I still had some savings.

Pati tatta nga adda iti ubingen, kailangan urnusen ni Mamak atoy balay da Lolak ta adda ubing nga kadwa min. Kailangan nawaya iti balay ken awan alikabok ta awan pay edi iti bubida na atoy yero mi. Bago pay naganak ni Manang ko, pinatirimaan ni Mamak kadwa na ni Titak atoy balay da Lolak nga tatta ket makuna mi metten nga balay mi.

And now that there’s a baby, my mom has to keep my grandparents’ house in order since the baby lives with us. The house needs to be spacious and free from dust, unlike before when the roof was only made of galvanized iron. Even before my sister gave birth, my mom, together with my aunt, had my grandparents’ house renovated—which we now also call our own home.

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Ammok nga nagulo dita ayan salas. LOL hinarangak metten ajay kusina ta haan pay napaayos. Haan pay met unay nga naayos atoy balay mi Lalo nu adda Baket ken Lakay nga kadwa mi ditoy balay, nagado latta ti agkakanat nga abubot dita suli-suli. Tapos adda Nanang na jay ubing nga tila pagkabkabalinan na ti gamgamit anak na. Isu nga bagok talaga ipost daytoy ket nagsinop ak pay nga umuna. 😆

I know the living room is messy. LOL. I also blocked off the kitchen since it hasn’t been fixed yet. Our house still isn’t fully organized, especially with our grandparents living with us—there are so many scattered things in every corner. And the baby’s mom also puts her children’s things all over the place. That’s why before I posted this, I really made sure to tidy things up first. 😆

Ngem saan ko metten nga pinapakeelamanan talaga ditoy Salas ta adda iti kwartok. Makapabanog gamin iti kara linis ditoy balay ngem dagitoy kakadwak madi da met ammo makisama.

But I don’t really meddle with the living room anymore since I already have my own room. It’s exhausting to always be the one cleaning the house, especially when the people I live with don’t even know how to cooperate.

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Atoy nga kwarto, tattak lang nga ibaga nga bagik, kukwak, ngem iti makin bagi talaga atoy ket ni Mamak. Isuna kanu intu iti ag-gyan ditoy. Ta ammo na nga maki-asawa ak intu. Ket kasatnu ngay nu saanak maki-asawa? HAHA Charot! Nu makitkita yu, siyak lang adda sangkapintasan na nga kwarto na ditoy nga balay. Nalinisak gamin ta madik kayat ti rugit ken wara. Uray nu agsusuffer ak ti depression ken mental health edi nagdaan nga bulan, papanatilihik met latta ti kwartok nga nalinis uray anya kinabusy'k nga agal-alaga ti pamangkin ko.

This is the room that, for now, I call mine, but technically it really belongs to my mom. She said that in the future, she’ll be the one staying here—since she knows I’ll eventually get married. But what if I don’t get married? HAHA Charot! If you take a look, this is probably the nicest room in the house. That’s because I like to keep it clean; I don’t like dirt and clutter. Even when I was suffering from depression and struggling with my mental health in the past months, I still managed to keep my room tidy, no matter how busy I got taking care of my niece.

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Haan ko met maibaga nga sangkapintasan talaga, naayos lang ti itsura na atoy kwartok ta adda ti pusak nga inaramid na nga stress reliver na atoy design na nga wallpaper bricks ditoy ayan igid ruwangan ko. Jusko! 🥲

I can’t really say this is the most beautiful room in the house; it just looks neat. And besides, my cat even used the bricks by my room’s doorway as its stress reliever. jusko! 🥲

Pero at least, tatta maibagak met nga naayosen atoy pagbgyagyanak nga kwarto ta awan iti abubot nga makitkitak jay ngaton ken mayaten ti maki-videocall ta awan iti rugit nga makitkitan.

But at least now, I can say that my room looks decent, since I don’t see any clutter around. It’s also nice for video calls because there’s no visible mess.

Ngem ammo yu, uray nagpintas kitaen iti balay mi tattan ket haan latta nga ideal nga balay nu iti ag gyagyan ditoy ket puro awan ti pakikisama iti kabalay mo. Haan da ammo agsinop, puro da apa uray anya oras. Isu nga kayat ko iti bumukod intun ta madik kayat iti environment. Naisip ko lang nga uray nu anya kinapintas balay, nu haan met nasyaat panagbyag yu nga pamilya, awan latta iti pintas na.

But you know what, even if our house looks nice now, it still doesn’t feel like an ideal home when the people you live with don’t know how to get along. They don’t clean up, and they’re always fighting at any time of the day. That’s why I want to have my own place someday—I just don’t like this kind of environment. I’ve realized that no matter how beautiful a house may be, if family life isn’t good, then it loses all its beauty.

Question:
Ano ang pinangarap mong tirahan vs sa tinitirhan mo ngayon? (What was your dream home vs where you’re currently living?)
My dream home is simple; I don’t mind if it’s small, as long as my family is complete and happy. Even though I already have my own room now, I’m still dreaming of that kind of home. When our house was improved and became more comfortable to live in, I honestly thought my family would be happy—that things would change, that they would learn humility, and that we would finally have a comfortable life. But I’ve come to realize that even if a house is big, clean, and neat, it’s useless if the people living inside still make life hard.

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Hi! My name is Xanreo (pronounced Shanreyo). I am a Filipina: Pure Ilocana but with a wanport blood of Bisaya, and I lived in one of the provinces in the northern part of Luzon, Philippines. I am a gamer. I love to play Mobile Legends, Cod-M, Roblox, and Honor of Kings. I also love alcoholic drinks. Food is my comfort bestie but number one hater of broccoli. I draw fan art when I am not lazy. I liked reading about your travel, food, art, and gameplay.

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Date: August 24, 2025

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Ay wow. Ikaw pa lang nakita ko nag-post ng Ilocano haha. Goojab!

As for the house, no kanayon da nga agaapa, mayat no ag-rosaryo kayo amin dita balay yo. Napigsa eta a kararag pangontra sa mga demonyo na dahilan ng mga away. Gawin nyo daily tingnan mo magbabago mga tao dyan sa bahay nyo. Hehe. Baka di mo na need umalis if ever pag nagbago mga tao. But that's the best case scenario kung lahat ng tao sa bahay ay magdasal magkakasama. If ikaw lang, may benefit pa rin, ipagdasal mo na lang silang lahat. haha.

Intry ko lang met ah apno ammo da met nga adda ilokano ditoy ayan Hive hahahaha nya 🤣

Yun nga ang nababasa ko. Isa talaga sa mga rason bakit di masaya ang pamamahay at naiimpluwensyahan baka may bad spirits. Parang nga gusto ko na rin mag simba ulit. Try ko apan nu dominggo.

Nasyaat met a ta apay mabalin met indeed nga agpost ti kastoy. Hahaha. Very refreshing.

Invite mo rin mga kasama mo sa bahay na magsimba. God bless you all sana madala mo sila lahat haha. Wag muna kayo magcommunion kung sakali di pa kayo naka-confession kung medyo matagal na kayo di nagsisimba. 😁

Mabalin met siguro ngem kasla madin sa ta baka spam kanyada giti makabasa madi da met maawatan 😂

Actually, nagsisimba naman sila si Lola ko tsaka Pinsan ko kaso minsan nalang dahil nga nanganak ate ko wala magbabantay sa pamangkin ko. Pero etong Lolo namin, hindi talaga. Kaya malabo na makakapagsimba kami ng sabay-sabay.

Ayun lang. Hehe. Let's pray for them na lang na magbalikloob sa Panginoon para matigil na mga away sa bahay nyo. Malakas ang rosaryo panlaban pag dinadasal sa bahay. May God bless you all. 🙏

Soonest magkakabahay rin tayo, Ang Ganda Ng bahay niyo lalo na kwarto mo 😍😍

Wala na te. HAHAHA wala balak Mama ko lumipat and tanging way ko lang ay build my own kapag nag asawa 😂 Kwarto nya to. 🥺 Nakikitira lang ako~

Hahaha ang tanong mag aasawa ba? Pwede pa Naman mag extend Ng bahay sa labas or mag dagdag Ng kwarto since parang maluwag diyan sainyo hehe