I think I'm still in between the stage where I'm being the fool who every one thinks they can do better than and proofing people wrong . It belittles me a lot when I act the fool and sometimes I feel less of myself and sometimes i don't have a choice because I don't command that authority financially, so I just quiet down and let them see me as foolish while I gain what I sort out to gain.
I've had situations where I've failed to care if what I did was we or right but it ended up hurting other people and I really felt bad, bad but I didn't regret it (sounds dark but I've been hurt a lot of times before).
I had to control the feeling of always being able to proof people wrong, it always felt good, like I was a king and it helped build my confidence but too much of everything is not good so I learnt to switch things up, be the fool when it was needed and be the over confident guy when it was needed.
Very relatable post nonso, thanks