Men are always accused of being heartless, apathetic, incapable of true love, which I agree is true for a lot of men, but of course not for everyone. At least not for me.
She is my childhood love, we fell in love with each other in grade 6, when we're just about 12 years old. But, we stayed in love for 6 more years, on and off. Fighting often and moving apart, then getting back to the reality that it's almost impossible to love any other person, or that we are soulmates and meant to each other.
I had this toxic habit of getting to know other girls and hanging out with them right after we break up, it was kind of a revenge, I wanted to show her that life won't stop if we're not together, and I did it multiple times. We always eventually got back to each other, but I knew that there will come a day when she'll say that's enough, and that's exactly what happened.
We were like no other couple, we even fought because we were madly in love that small events were always a big deal. We were in grade 12 when we broke up, by then we knew that no matter how hard we try it's not going to work.
Not very long after we broke up, she fell in love with another guy who I also know very well, and at first I didn't seem to care much, but by time it started eating me alive. I was afraid of meeting her because I don't want her to know how desperate I was without her.
Now, I can't say I'm sure that I still love her, but I miss her, I still care about her well-being, I still long for her existence in my life and no other girl has been able to occupy the same place in my heart not even close. Never was able to truly fall in love after, and I always compared other girls to her. She was the only that I needed no reasons to love.
At least 7 years have passed since we came apart, and I'm not even sure why I'm telling you this story now, but it feels good putting my feelings into words.
Both of us grew apart, chose different paths in life, and I don't think I'd welcome her if she came back to my life, but I know that I'll always remember her, and that she'd forever have this special place in my heart that no other girl would be able to have.
That was beautifully written, raw, and honest. Love especially the kind that leaves an imprint on your soul that doesn’t just fade away. It evolves. It settles into quiet corners of your heart, no longer burning but still warm, still present.
I felt a slight pain in my heart.💔 Hoping that one day, you can talk about everything.😃
Your comment means so much to me, so happy that I was able to deliver that meaning and put my feels into words. I wish the best for you too ♥️
It is important to experience these things in life, even the tumultuous ones. It allows us to know what these feelings and situations are like so that we can navigate others in a prepared way in the future.
I wouldn’t go back to them though, because ultimately you broke up for a reason and it’s best to move on and stay that way.
You're absolutely right about that, it's just the longing and memories.