First of all, I am super glad that you got all that out (I really hope you felt a lot better after). The fact that you even know the cause of the uneasiness is a good step to get your emotions and feelings back to normal,
That part you mentioned that you are suffering from anticipation really got my attention, because it seems like it is one of the things you have to tackle first. You are already visualizing having a new space, and having things the way you want them. So, this is it; I think you have to calm down a bit and actually live in the moment.
I understand that it's frustrating rn and you can't wait to escape the situation, but you have been in this same house for few years and you have survived it so far, so what is few more months?
I hope that you get the most suitable and perfect apartment soon, so you will be grateful for this phase and the dissapointments that comes with it.
Btw, thanks for not deleting or shuting your feelings. You will get through this soon, and please, write about it when you do, you write really well.
Hello @creativepearl! I don't think I have ever had the pleasure to meet you before 😊 Thank you so much for your kind words!
You are totally right! When I come back to my rational and logical self I also think that. I'm in a little circle of strong emotions, I would say, somewhere between frustration with excitement 😂
Oh wow! I appreciate your compliment, it means a lot to me 🤗😍! It drives me to push forward and keep writing from the heart 😚