I can relate to a lot of this. Few days ago I powered up 2k HP and wrote a post about my great shock and disappointment that more people are not doing the same. A day(?) before that I powered another 500HP(this time I did not buy it but won in a free spins of Hive slot games). 2k I bought may not change anything the big picture but for me it is still decent amount of money. I also am now making a huge art piece about Hive(152.5 x 76 cm). Still not sure if I will want to try and sell it(and buy more Hive with that money😛) or hang it on my own wall. We will see as it is still faar from complete.
Don't gamble! Especially during times like these :D
it is my weakness. Also sweets. and dogs.
A while back I did win and powered up maybe a few k HP. But I still think that I lost way more by gambling. Still giving up that thrill is quite hard.