It was actually more anxious as fuck than excited… though suppose as some have said, they’re sometimes maybe just actually two different forms of the same energy. (Your feedback is interesting - perhaps it apparent from your observation that one-in-the-same, recognizing the “excitement” side more clearly than I have myself.)
Funny how the excitement side has come more in small, subtle glimmers over a long course of time - while the anxiety, like a tsunami all at once.
Also kinda how been almost oddly resistant/reluctant to allowing myself to really be with the excitement, while the anxiety side… no stopping it, just full-on carried away with the intensity until the wave subsided.
More interesting observations on / lessons in the nature of emotional waves. :-)
It was actually more anxious as fuck than excited… though suppose as some have said, they’re sometimes maybe just actually two different forms of the same energy. (Your feedback is interesting - perhaps it apparent from your observation that one-in-the-same, recognizing the “excitement” side more clearly than I have myself.)
Funny how the excitement side has come more in small, subtle glimmers over a long course of time - while the anxiety, like a tsunami all at once.
Also kinda how been almost oddly resistant/reluctant to allowing myself to really be with the excitement, while the anxiety side… no stopping it, just full-on carried away with the intensity until the wave subsided.
More interesting observations on / lessons in the nature of emotional waves. :-)