Been a minute here and every time I show up here after a long while, it feels like I am in a new space.
When I first joined hive, I was so excited about showing up everyday. I would connect with other people and write articles ahead to meet up with my target of posting every single day.
Gradually, the feeling died down and I realized that I was struggling to catch up with my daily showing up target. At a point, I just dammed the feeling and started showing up like two or three days apart and then finally I would vanish for up to two to three months and return again.
Whatever was the reason till now, I cannot fathom. I realized that a lot of my buddies had left the space a long time ago too. Some got too busy with work and couldn't keep up again while others just lost interest in the block chain. I fall into the latter category because I can't even say why I am barely here.
Hive before now felt like a job for me. Of course I had the purpose of making money. Was I making money? Well, yes to an extent but not as much as I wanted to sort out big projects. It actually solved some minor immediate needs at some point.
Right now, I want to be focused on hive again. One thing hive has helped me do is make me knowledgeable. I have learnt from different people all over the world and it feels like not being here makes me miss so many things that would have added to my knowledge.
But the big question is how long will I get back here before I run away again? It gives me hell of a problem. I am someone that losses interest in stuff easily.
Sometimes I wonder if there are persons like me who losses interest in doing something so fast. It is not like they cannot do it actually.
When I start a thing, I put in my 100% in it and ensure that I am successful whilst at it. But as time goes on, it feels like someone just poured water to quench the burning flame. It is crazy sometimes. I can't help it.
Could it be that maybe I am not pushing myself so hard as I should, or is this just how I am wired?
People who show up here everyday, please how do you do it? I mean showing up 365 days is not easy at all. I must give you all who do it some flowers because you all deserve it.
I know someone who wakes up 2am every single day to write a post and publish. He shows up here every day like his life depends on it.
Even though I see it as not necessary I must confess that his level of determination is totally out of this world.
I look forward to be that committed, determined and focused.
I will really appreciate an advice here on how to stay motivated here. I always want to show up and I need to know how to.
Thank you for reading.