This is really heartbreaking, @drawingly. You draw with such confidence and professionalism. It's amazing what you've had to struggle against to develop those skills. I'm glad your grandmother, at least, was there to support you, even if your own parents were not.
May I also say that you have a beautiful face - expressing wisdom and confidence, even if you're struggling with depression on the inside.
I wish you every success, so that you can fulfill your dreams and be an inspiration to your girls the way your grandmother was to you.