Hi @moneybijay, I really liked your honesty and taking the time to gather all that experience and feelings in one compelling post.
I would really advise you to never give up on anything especially if this is your dream, just keep your head up and pursue it until the end. It will pay out eventually when you are less expecting. Also always do things for the passion and to learn first and never for the rewards. The rewards are just a bonus but the most important is having a true passion for what you do and have fun with it too.
You are right to be a bit sad and even frustrated with the platform payment returns on the short time but there was only 3 month and you know great things take some time and hard work to come, steemit is no difference.
Look at the great things you learn and already accomplish on only 3 month on the platform and you should be proud. Another suggestion I would give you is to really work on the layout and composition of you text. Make the style BOLD when there is some important idea, quote and add images on some other interesting thoughts. Curate the best you can each piece like if it was a newspaper or even a magazine article you will see much more people interested on it.
The true potential of the steemit platform is not the quantity you can share or publish, but the quality and care you put in each piece you do. Have that in mind and even if you produce fewer posts, always share the best ones.
Good luck and keep the great work!
@kreesher Thank you for you advice. You are right. I was thinking wrong. I will try to do my best in steemit. No matter whether someone read my post or not. No matter whether I get upvotes or not. But I will always do hard work. And I know I will win not immediately but definitely...
@moneybijay, that's the spirit :) Always have fun and you will see you will gain traction in no time. Also, If I were you I would try to put your post in many resteem blogs as possible, I would recommend for example when you have a new post you also follow and share with @whatsontrend she is a great person here on the steemit community and every day she do a post to help spread the work and content of new people. You can find her latest post on this link: https://steemit.com/contest/@whatsontrend/free-resteem-and-free-upvotes-for-everyone-or-no-rules-or-day-115