[Hive blog on "my Dixon Tablet" says it does not support images - I hope you find this]
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Hello Hive,
I am back but not back in full.
I was @nickydee once-upon-a-life-ago. But then people happened and now I am different.
Sometimes you can't go back.
HR tag inserted here if I could make art or do layout on my hacked AF Dixon Tablet.
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I once wrote a post that claimed I always come back. But... I did add that sometimes ya can't go back. This can also be true because sometimes you just aren't the person that you were anymore.
I am different.
Whether this is a "good" or a "bad" thing is never possible to discern. Prolly ever. And I'm really okay with this now.
15 years of practicing "non-judgement" and, surprisingly (because you'd think this a simple practice) I still haven't got it in full.
You'd have to try it, as often as possible in practice, to experience just how complex it is.
Same again with not even being able to type liddle arrow thingies for HTML an' shit.
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So I got hacked AF.
I reckon everyone knows this at this stage of WTF game are we playing anyway because it looks a LOT like murder she will never write again.
To me.
But call me paranoid.
Again.
Same again because can't HR even.
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Long an' short is that I can't work like this FFS.
I am an artist. Fully certified (but not certifiable now confirmed - again - by an illegal section in a government hospital by a bunch of retards with good contacts and no fucking common sense).
At least my mental health was cleared, in full, again. And again.
This has not helped me see my son, however.
Dot. Dot. Dot. Again.
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They also may arrest me for trying to write.
Again.
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My desire to make money, art or poetry has now become life-threatening.
It always was, in Truth, and I was aware of this while I was trying to survive. But things have escalated to no can be "on-the-line-and-no-help-coming".
South Africa ain't havin' it. On ANY level.
One must accept that Human Writes are officially null and Void.
Here, anyway.
Dot. Dot. Dot. Again.
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My posts, content and more were also vandalised and / or destroyed in the hack (s). Yes. MULTIPLE hacks that nobody is interested in investigating.
Including my posts, here on Hive, on my old @nickydee profile.
Vandalised and shirted all over (typo intended). This isn't inspiring for an artist and a wannabee writer.
It also means that SOMEBODY has my keys and more.
Dot. Dot. Dot. Again.
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After working SO hard to grow my old account and getting the attention and growing income, doing what I love (and yes it IS possible with hard work and dedication), and losing it ALL in one foul swoop (intended mismake), I don't have the time, energy or funds to write.
Or the inspiration.
Or the internet.
And more.
Dot. Dot. Dot. Again.
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I do want to leave this here in case my kids find my shit online and think that their Mama was a crap writer, rubbish artist and general loser.
Hive clearly didn't agree and, looking at some of my old stuff and reading in between the vandalism, some of it was pretty okay.
*nods
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I did write a post some time ago... "Don't Make Assumptions" - changed to "About Those Assumptions". Handwritten in a personal notebook. I figured I may be able to write by hand and stick it online when time and internet allowed.
But the rough notes were stolen from my notebook during a reign of Terror that unfolded after the hack that I am still unable to extricate myself from.
It had potential but needed editing and development.
Dot. Dot. Dot. Again.
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Long and short is that some folks REALLY don't want me writing.
I'll leave it here and visit, along the way, to check in and around.
Stay you, Hive.
Strange times for us all.
Love,
I was Nicky Dee.
(Offline since June 2024 and can't get my shit back). If you saw me on the internet 'twas not "me".
No collaborations, business agreements, team mates or nada. Almost homeless, lost my kid. Totally fucked but calm and serene. It's a breakthrough.
Dot. Dot. Dot.
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Image mine. And original. If I could upload one.
Dot. Dot. Dot.
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Hi.
What @palomap3 said.
See you around.
...𝔻𝕀𝕊ℂ𝕆𝕍𝔼ℝ𝕐...
...!discovery...
Yep yep.
I only saw this now. Sawry so slow but the internet comes and goes these days.
Likes, loves and comments stay buried. Messages are still being deleted to and Frum.
They broke the internet and it's all over and fucked as fuckedy fucked as can be.
Can't find frens here in search results even. Everyone is invisible on "my" internet. Not so fun.
They think we're bots. Good! *nods
Being stupid is a superpower in a world of Ninjas an' Gurus
Keep 'em arrogant. My boy taught me not to get cocky in battle. You get yer ass kicked every time.
p.s. I still can't even play Fortnite.
Not doing shit until I can game again.
Thanks for saying hello :)
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Nice to see you, Angel.
I still think of you. Tru Story.
Sending MASSIVE love, A.
Stay you, please ❤️
Hi dear. I’m happy to know about you again but I’m sorry for your situation. I am here if I can do anything for you. I send you a big hug. ❤️
There you are :)
I still think of you, beautiful lady.
Nice to see you again. ❤️
Good to see you again, K.
Sending love. 💯
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