My Roller Coaster Ride of Life: Finding Hope from God

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Hello everyone, I am Merlyn Ornopia or just simply call me Pia for short. I’m sweet twenty-six-years-old and a loving mother of my two deceased child. I am the youngest among five siblings. I am Registered Criminologist. I finished college with the degree of Bachelor of Science in Criminology year 2019 at the University of Cebu Lapu-Lapu and Mandaue. I took my Licensure last December 2022 and passed the Criminologist Licensure Examination. I’m currently living in Alang-Alang Tabogon Cebu.

On this platform, I go by my new moniker as @justcallmepia. This username was inspired by a roller coaster ride of my life. My life isn’t that pretty as others but I do love my life since it was given and a gift by God for me. My hobbies are playing volleyball and badminton and I do love exploring life like adventures, road trips and nature trips. I am an introvert person who loved being in a small group of people that truly means to me. ~When I was young, I was bullied by everybody even my classmates. They called me "ungo/monster" they call me monster because of my hair and skin tone cause I was black during my elementary days and I was living in the mountain. I’ve grown in a poor family where my father is a construction worker and my mother is a farmer. Since the salary of my father isn’t enough to sustain our needs, my mother decided to make charcoal and (raha) the tree branches that can be used as firewood. We made charcoal and (raha) for a living. We lived in the mountain, no motorcycle to ride going to school, no electricity, no television and no source of water. As a kid, it’s very tough for me carrying responsibilities at the very young age but I saw the hardships and the efforts of my mother for us to have food in the table. My mother always taught me that even though we are poor, and not lucky as others as I grow up I don’t forget what life was like.
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(This is my cute face when I was in High School 😁)

Years go by, I was in high school and still I was bullied there, they called me "iring itom"or the black cat, as defined that I am as black as the cat. Every time I am going home I always cry and wonder why? Why is bullying occur? When can I escape bullying? I don’t have guts to report my situation because I was weak, worried and frightened that time. During my time there’s no law for anti-bullying and that’s why I just let it pass and kept it on my own. During my high school life I don’t even experienced JS Prom because we don’t have money for the registration fee and we don’t have money to buy a dress. I don’t have really good memories during the days, all I want is to finish high school and find a job to repay the hardship of my parents.

Years go by, I finished high school and I told my parents that I don’t pursue college because we don’t have money for my tuition, but God is good he sent me an angel that makes me pursue my dream to be a POLICE Officer someday. My auntie who was in Saudi Arabia that time told me that she will send and support me in college as her help for my father. I was so happy that time because she pays everything, but the time has changed. On my 2nd year in college she told me that she cannot support me anymore. I was very sad that time because she is only our reliance but there is nothing we can do in her decisions. Despite of everything, I pursue my studies. As a seventeen-years old student, I took risks on my own. I know that I am not in legal age for work but I am so dedicated and I want to pursue my studies. They file a waiver for my age and a consent of my parents that they allow me to go to work at my very young age. While I was studying, I was a service crew for two years in Jollibee A.S Fortuna Mandaue City just to support my college. I worked in the night and I went to school in the morning.
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(This picture shows how strong I am despite of every struggle in life and still managed to smile 🙂)

Months go by, luckily I am one of those who were selected as a candidate ROTC Officer that offers scholarship. I don’t have to worry about my tuition because the school will handle the fees and my parents was so proud and happy for me, they didn’t expect everything in me how I manage everything.
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(The best day of my life)

October 2019, I finished college. Among my four siblings I was the one who was reached in college, I was so proud and they were so proud also for my achievement.Year 2020 pandemic days, as I want to take new challenge in life. I want to enroll in review center for my preparation for the upcoming Criminologist Licensure Examination but God never allows it because the whole city is locked down, face to face classes were suspended that time. I went home in my hometown TABOGON Cebu. Month goes by, during that time I didn’t expect I was pregnant, I was very devastated because I have pending dream to reach and my parents didn’t accept my situation at first but when the baby comes out they love the baby. My first daughter was born on December 24,2020(a baby Jesus). She brought us lots of happiness and joy. Years go by were so happy, everything goes well both emotionally and financially. When my baby turning one year old, I decided to take the Licensure examination without review, but I failed(again I cried and cried) but my baby made me strong and my partner never leaves my side until I passed the examination. Later on, I decided to retake the examination. I went to city to enroll in a review center for the preparation for the upcoming December 2022 Licensure Examination. And finally, this is it! I did it! I passed the examination.
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(Here’s the cute pictureof us before she left us💔. A complete family😭)

On March 2023, due to lack of financial needs of my baby I applied for a job in Bluewater Maribago Lapu- Lapu City, I was a Lady Guard there for two years while working I decided to apply in the PNP service held in Carcar City Cebu despite of a very tiring process because I have work I have to manage again my time, everything. After the long process of the recruitment, I enjoyed during the process but God never allows me to part of the service, I failed, I wasn’t accepted. But, I didn’t lose hope in everything I applied again for the second time but then again I failed I stood up again and say to myself its okay life must goes on maybe God has better plans for me maybe this is not the path that God arranged for me. So time goes by, I focused on my work.

Fast forward….
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February 17, 2025 the date that my daughter died At the age of four I was so shattered, my whole life is also dying. I was depressed. I don’t know what to do knowing that I was a super mama that did everything for her super child that she couldn’t experienced everything that her mama experienced in her life. I was totally broken The day that my child dies is the day that I lose sight of my dreams because she gives me a lot of hopes, pride, everything. She is everything for me. I poured my whole life and love for her and unexpectedly she leaves me and you know what’s very painful as a mom that you didn’t have the hint that she’s going to heaven without any words coming from her mouth. She leaves you just a blink of an eye, just like you’re dreaming. That time I was so confused, my heart feels so heavy and always questioning God for everything why this is happening to me? Am I that bad? Many people out there neglected their child but they’re so happy why! me????? Why us?? I kept questioning this to God every day. After the interment, the house is very quite, full of sadness. But we can’t do anything about it, we just have to accept everything because everything happens for a reason. Months goes by, I was pregnant seems she’s reincarnating, were so happy because she’s back to us! But upon checking the baby on my womb, the baby has no heartbeat I lose my child again I was having a miscarriage. I was rushed to the hospital caused by bleeding. I was confined in the hospital for four days. This year is very tough for me and kept questioning and why everything has to be happened like this? But after all the heartbreaks that we’ve felt, God save us. He saved us through fellowship, there was these missionaries came to our lives and explained everything about God. Every pain has purpose, and God never allows pain without purpose. This fellowship helps us to deal with the pain we’ve faced, it helps us to understand more. We thank God for the instrument he sent us in order for us to get closer to him, and now our hearts are not that heavy as before and our minds are more peaceful. God has been so good to each one of us but the challenges we’ve faced taught us the deep meaning of life. Now, despite of everything, we know that God holds everything in life and we rely everything to God.
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(One of my latest pictures, accepting everything because God knows it all! Standing again and fighting and never loses hope)

I was inspired by @itsmary18 to join this hive for me to explore things in life because I really love to do journalism and read some of those that really inspiring me and I want to share my inspiring life also how I cope up grievance and challenges in life. Thank you for your precious time getting to know me. I wish every one is doing well everyday and barely don’t forget whatever challenges that we faced in our lives please know that God has reason in every pain. God uses pain and struggles to know the purpose of life and for us to be strong. God loved us more than we love ourselves. I am so excited to be part of this Hive community and to explore more in this platform. Thank you so much and may God bless us in whatever our heart desires. May God bless us all.

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You are incredibly brave, ma'am! I know you've been through a lot of adversity since you were a child, but because of your faith, you remain brave and believe in the Lord. It is true that no matter what difficulties we face, we must remember to pray because everything in our lives has a purpose. You are an inspiration to everyone that no matter what disasters and hardships come our way, we must hold on to prayer because our Lord will never disappoint or forsake us.

Welcome po sa hive, explore mo Lang po lalo na ang community I'm sure mag eenjoy Ka po dito. 🫶🏻🤍

Hello po 🩷 thank you 🙏 thats the reason why I joined this hive to add an inspiration to everyone and to those ones that struggling too 🩷 We have God in our hearts, nothing to worry in everything.

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Welcome to Hive, @justcallmepia! What an inspiring story you’ve shared. I’m from Tabogon too, and it’s heartwarming to see a fellow local making a positive impact. I’m looking forward to reading more your blogs po.💗🌸

Thank you dear hiver, your positive comment adds me more inspiration to blog more 🩷 Hopefully you're doing great today ☺️🩷