you have been so brave to go out alone in the night, really in your condition you have all my admiration for what it can value
i get you, every day, every hour anxiety is there, with the tough "will that happen again? when?" like having a tick bomb and you don't know when it will explode
7 years ago, I use to be a very chill person, never worrying about how bad it got, but it's a different thing nowadays
i totally understand you, 10 years ago for me, now every day i wake up thinking "is today the day or luckily not yet?"