Synchronicity!
It occurred to me this morning, directly after I awoke, that I should devote my life to doing what needs to be done and saying what needs to be said, in every moment. That's to say, I felt (and feel) very strongly that the "right thing" to do in every moment is to speak and act from an inner "space" that is free from my own selfish and fear-based agendas (ego-consciousness) and invites others to join in the freedom (freedom from selfishness, dishonesty, manipulation, jealousy, hatred, distrust, fear, etc.).
I feel, in my intuition, that this inner space of freedom is to be "real" in realest sense of that word; to be pure; to be that which God made us and intended for us to be; walking the "right path" that God set as an option before a spirit with apparent freewill.
To be really free is to give up on having a choice, or, rather, the illusion of having a choice (illusory because the ego is a thought program bound within intellectual and psychological limitations that one can't see or grasp while living from inside of it).
To be truly free is to surrender to God. To be truly good, to the core, there mustn't be one ounce of ego left in charge of our speech or actions, because the ego always looks out for "self" and subtly fears the "other"; it leads to acting in ways that spiritually harm the people around us, even if we aren't aware of doing so.
Some people hear what I'm suggesting and it scares them. They'll say that it's dangerous to lose the ego, "because it's the mental faculty that's responsible for distinguishing the subject (self) from the objective world of people, places, and things."
Why distinguish these things at all? What good comes from looking out for oneself at the risk of harming others? So what if you die by giving up selfhood? We're all going to die anyways, right? Might as well get it over with now and see what it's all about.
Giving up control and the illusion of freewill (in the ego) is the ultimate test of faith in God. You can't know before you lose your ego if you'll still be sane. You have no way of knowing for sure that freeing yourself won't turn you schizophrenic.
Indeed, many psychologists will warn you that you may become schizophrenic or enter some other form of dangerous psychosis if you totally "let go" and free yourself from ego. Is it true? Maybe...or maybe they're misinformed and/or misinterpreting what they're seeing. So, you see, we all must risk our sanity in order to truly become free. So long as we stick to our selfishness and fears of losing control/ power, we will be plagued with the psychological suffering and physical pains of the material flesh and fleshly world of greed, competition and war (game-consciousness).
Jesus was free and he showed us how to be free and he spoke the words that will guide all earnest souls towards freedom. The words all point to one thing; his actions all point to one thing - trust God; have faith in Him; He is the light and the way; salvation comes with giving up all that is good and all that we cherish to God.
Let Him take it all away. Let Him strip us down to our bones, if that's in the Divine Plan. Let Him take away our sanity, if that's what it takes to walk with the Lord and to do His work. If hell is what's deserved of my soul, so be it, cast it in flames. Make it pure so that it can do the good work of the Spirit. Make it Your tool to do Your work.
My ego lacks faith in Spirit. It's full of fears and despises the very idea of letting go and trusting in God. Luckily the ego isn't real - it's not the life in me and of me. The life of me, my soul, doesn't have to try to trust God, it just does. It's in my very nature to trust God. It's in our nature to trust God, only we must have the courage to see it.
I'm only just now starting to realize these things in a deep and unquestionable manner, not only intellectually, like I have in the past, but, rather, living it through my experiences. I can feel in my most trusted senses, deep inside of me, that it's the Truth; the Real. And, while the experience feels wonderful and has beautiful effects on my experience of the world, I'm aware that focusing on that part of surrendering to God is self-defeating - it only feeds the ego, leading to ego-inflation, egotism, and neuroticism. I have to let go of EVERYTHING, including the pleasant feelings and wonderful gifts that come with tasting more and more freedom, otherwise I'll get sucked back into the world of selfish agendas and unknowingly (unintentionally) hurting other people, along with myself.
This is the human condition that I'm highlighting, here. We all can feel the goodness inside of us, but we can sense resistance and fear towards entirely freeing it to be as it is. The ego fears giving up control. In fact, the sense of control IS its life and the ego fears death like anything else that lives fears death.
The fear of death is really a fear of the unknown that lies on the other-side, and that's the point; that's the test. Freedom lies in trusting that the most good will come from a total surrender of selfhood to God.
It's here with us all, this ability to trust and to let go. The strength is with us, inside of us. Of course it is. Our souls are a part of the Spirit that is God. How could it be any other way?