When moving up is the same as giving up
I’m stuck in topsy-turvy world
And I’m beginning to wonder if there ever was a way out
I’ve let far too much amass in my subconscious
Catharsis is imminent
I have been living a lie
I am far past that
Now I question if it’s even real
The barrier has been broken
Things will never be the same
I never wanted them to
As opportunity awaits
I question my own integrity
Forever broken
To rot and decay
I haven’t found what I was looking for
Enlightenment left for dead
I can only only see
The chaos in things
Every time I thought I was found
I let them get to me again
Insidious insects
Shapeshifting energy vampires
Only I can give them power
They are as weak as the flesh is
I am no better
Each and every one of them
Underestimates me
And it’s OK.
I understand.
I understand why you chose
A culture of death
As your God
Because it is
All you have
Ever known
Ever sown
But I am not like you
I never will be
You’d be better off
Keeping your distance
I AM NOT WHO YOU THINK I AM
I AM NOT AS WEAK AS YOU THINK I AM
I FIND MYSELF SINKING A LEVEL
Simply to interpret your mindless drivel
I’ve exhausted all ends that are civil
And this is precisely what you want
As you continue to taunt
But is it more than you bargained for?
You think I am weak because I show kindness.
A cliché sentiment I know
I don’t really think you understand
The implications of your error
Within your world of petty terror
You laugh as you attempt to scare
Beware
of
yourself
Your ego owns your own being
Never seeing what I’m seeing
Intentionally disagreeing
It is yourself you are deceiving
