This life is such a wild ride, isn't it? The constant ups and downs, trying to maintain some sort of balance and equanimity; a psychological tight rope of sorts.
It comes with a price: I can often become too harsh on myself and on others because I do not know better. Hardship is all I've been having since childhood...
I resonate a lot with this! I've suffered a lot over the years with generalized anxiety and a pretty messed up childhood in restrospect. It pushed me in the direction of meditation. Something interesting that a Buddhist teacher said that to I've been contemplating recently:
You are unenlightened to the extent that you are embedded in your experiences.
Let that rattle around in the ol' noggin a bit. It's quite a profound statement with huge implication for how we relate to our life and experiences.
First of all, thank you for the support! Definetely not easy, I will pass through this and get stronger and wiser. And I am sure that good people, who will stay, will come into my life. Very good quote, I will think about it, it bears a lot of meaning...I often found myself trying to overanalyse or to make people see differently and make them change. I can see how it is wrong because you can't force people out of your life or force them in. Or make them genuinely regret. I can see how detaching from the experience can help in achieving peace and a different mindset. Good people will come, I am sure. Because probably I had to change things about me first in order to attract what I need and have them stay.
Here's a little ENGAGE for you.
!ENGAGE 20
ENGAGEtokens.