Fully understand you. I was caught up in the curator's side of things for a few years and that routine became so normal to me that I didn't even realise that I was miserable doing it. Had no idea just how much of my life was being put aside for it.
Now I don't do that stuff I feel much better about my time on here, I also take more breaks when I feel I need them and just have no interest in writing anything. Now, I only post if I feel like it. No guilt in not posting. No 'obligations' to the chain.
Have a wonderful holiday, and enjoy life a bit more!
Thanks mate! Take care!