I don't think I have felt this quite on the same level you do, but I know that lately on Steem, I feel that my writing has no value and no one cares about it. If it weren't for the auto votes that people have set to me, I would make pretty much nothing on my posts. No upvotes, no new followers, no comments. It is pretty heartbreaking when you dwell on it. I just keep plugging along though. Eventually someone pipes in and boosts my esteem. Usually on the least likely posts too!