So. Finally I was able to read this amazing post of yours :D
Honestly, I think, I'm kinda weird in this regard.
A friend of mine called me once an extroverted introvert. Sounds strange, I know.
I REALLY enjoy being alone - just reading, watching movies, playing games, working out, learning, etc. - all the usual things one can do perfectly on his own.
On the other hand, I love whenever the attention of others is solely focusing on me. If I'm not able to draw the whole room's attention at my presence after five minutes I walked in, I did something wrong.
I worked for a couple of years as an actor, I love speaking in front of an audience, entertain and educate other people.
You might figured out something by now: all of this is happening on MY terms. In situations I can control.
I'm very sophisticated whenever I need to deal with social interactions - but that doesn't mean I necessarily like them. I know, which kind of behaviour most people expect and I'm very skilled in faking it - but quite often I would like to say, that I actually don't care at all about their last holidays, thoughts on weather or whatever bullshit small-talk topic one can come up with. From time to time I tend to tell them, just to watch how they're reacting :)
Instead of going skiing, he would rather stay home for his birthday. For real!
I can SO relate to his thinking. I don't care about birthdays or parties, or "traditional" social events at which you are expected to be. Most people either annoy or bore me (quite often both) - so I would rather spend time with someone I actually enjoy talking to. But if that's not possible, than at least I want to have ALL attention - as I said, I'm weird :D
Hi there, @egotheist! Danke fur deinen libliechen Kommentar (omg, that's all the German I am capable of and I am completely confused whether I need to put this -en thing at the end of the words?!) :D
I think your friend was quite right calling you an extraverted introvert :D
So, you are a control-freak, huh? I doubt that :) But, as your fan, I am really glad you like to perform and entertain, otherwise you wouldn't write these incredible articles I happen to like so much! Cheers!
You did alright :D
Well, that's at least what most people who know me better tell me. It's really hard for me to just "let go" ;)
Yes you are. Lol.
I don't think I'm far behind though. I am an introvert, and speaking in front of a crowd or going out for a party scares the shit outta me.
Recently though, I've been trying my best, pushing my limits just to answer the "what ifs". What if I attend this party? What if I did this or that?
I've found that it's as much fun to meet new annoying people as it is to enjoy a new episode of my favourite series. Heck, at a point, I felt I might have been missing out on life all those times I didn't take people up on their offers.
In all, I guess I'm still "in training", as @mobbs would call it. We'll see where it all leads eventually.
LOL, I really like this attitude! :D
Yeah.