Nope it doesn't matter if others have a more positive answer... Your answer is important to you and obviously valid. I have experienced several tough periods in life that were caused quite deliberately by family members.
For several years I didn't talk to some of my extended family... I let go of animousity about it but just decided life would be better without them at-least for a spell. It turned out to be years yet I slept like a baby as I had always been a good guy and carried no guilt. Interestingly when we did reconnect they acted a lot better, almost like grown-ups lol.
Maybe the big dream is for a world of nonassholishhumans right?
Thanks for taking the time my friend, appreciate it. Have an awesome week 🙂