There was a rumor floating around the office today, the kind that spreads faster than actual work. From what I gathered, the staff who have been with the company for more than a year already received the first portion of the yearly bonus. And honestly, it left a bad taste in my mouth.
Not because I want to count other people’s pockets, but because of the line they drew. One year and above gets something, below one year gets nothing. That feels like a strange way to divide a team that’s supposedly working toward the same goals, right?
I’ll admit it, I’m bitter. I’m only eight months in, so I’m on the “not eligible” side of the fence. What bugs me more is that this is the first company I’ve worked for that doesn’t give a prorated bonus for employees who haven’t completed a full year. In my previous jobs, it was normal to receive something proportional, a small recognition that your effort still counted.
Today, it hit me that this decision demoralized me more than I expected. It made me question the value of the long days, the extra pushes, the times I stayed switched on even when I was tired. It’s hard not to feel like my work was invisible, especially when you see others rewarded even if, from where I stand, they didn’t exactly go the extra mile.
“Injustice anywhere is a threat to justice everywhere,” Martin Luther King Jr. once said. I’m not calling this a tragedy, but it is a reminder, companies don’t always measure effort the way we hope they will.
Still, I’ll let myself feel it today, then I’ll decide what I want to do with that feeling tomorrow.
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