Yesterday I cooked my first proper meal in a very long time, stood on my feet for a very long time without getting dizzy, it's been 5 weeks, and for the first time I didn't feel as dizzy, I still needed someone close to me to do the shopping for me while I cooked, because I still wanted to add weight, while the I continue to build red blood cells (even though they're not healthy red blood cells).
My lower extremities are no longer as cold as they were, two weeks ago. Yesterday I messaged someone I know from here, and asked if their wife has delivered of their baby, because I truly wanted to see them and visit their child.
They asked me if I could make it, and then I told them that I might not immediately visit them, but I'll definitely do, maybe a week or more after the child is delivered (God willing).
I have taken a long distant walk since the 7th of August, and that's just because of the recovery time I still need under my belt.
At the moment, I don't have a lot of people in my life right now, but I grateful for the few who supports and genuinely care, especially when they know I cannot offer them anything in return.
I don't do a lot of chatting or talking, because I don't have a lot of energy to burn, and I've probably incurred more DIS-FRIENDS who wanted something and I wasn't available to give.
I don't want to always be salty because of that, I'm genuinely happy at this point in my life that I found the love of genuine people, even though they're just 4 or 5.
Unfortunately I cannot give too much anymore, especially when people needs helps and I'm too sick to do so. Yes, I know people who have gotten angry because I wasn't available to help them, the problem is they actually don't understand the battles I have to fight on my own, everyday.
I get people texting only when they need help, and most of the time, I'm genuinely happy to help, but this year alone I've fallen sick like 4 to 5 time, with this current one being the hardest and scariest, and because of this, I'm mostly not healthy enough to help or talk.
Most times, I gotta take care of medicine, bills and other things, and working extra hard and being sick just leaves me "zero time", perhaps someday if God wills it, I can have enough money, the right state of mind, and a healthy body that doesn't switch up on me whenever it wants.
For now, I'm unavailable and unmotivated, because of this, I keep to myself: no chitchats, no friendly vibes, just fighting the battles and trying to pay the bills. Last year and this year have probably been the saddest I've been.
I've had additions and blessings, but I lost one of the most important person, and the closest family and remaining nuclear family I had, and this left a big hole in my life, that's not going to be mended by anything ever.
In reality, no one leaves this earth with the friends they've made, so I'm not freaked about not having any. The pain i currently have is valid, but above all, I'm thankful and always grateful to God, for the countless times I've recovered and the transformation of my mind and heart
Ohh,I'm really sorry about this...
I pray that God heals you from every sickness in Jesus name 🙏
It's really sad to loose someone,most times it's not something we can recover from,but I pray that God will replenish you hundred folds and his protection will always be with you...
Amen, thanks for the kind words
I'm glad you're hanging in there and were able to make it through such a milestone yesterday. Cooking a meal without feeling lightheaded my have felt great! Keep building up that strength and those RBCs! It's tough to be a good friend and chatty when you don't feel good, something I understand well. My friend poos has shrank significantly over the last several years. Keep up that faith and keep getting stronger, I'm glad to see you're still fighting!
Why? What's the cause of God condition?
Even Jesus will not be happy that we please others to displease ourselves. In a time time like this,genuine friends sticks , better to tag along with those few ones than battalions and be happy . The most important thing now is that you are gradually recovering . God's grace bro
Thanks for the kind words, I guess you're right. I'm choosing myself first and my family
That the best strategy to take
good dey Joe, it's quite a battle i know, I can't truly imagine how you're feeling at the moment, but trust me it will pass you will heal up , you will be fine keep hoping believing and trusting he never fails
Thank you always for the kind words
it's alright pls take care of you... you will be fine
Your focus should be on how to get yourself, manage your health and retain your happiness please, at least we are happy you could make something good for yourself, don't worry God will keep on giving you power beyond what is normal
Yeah, that's my focus
I am glad you are feeling better, and that you found which friends are truly there for you.
Yeah, it takes bad times to find them
if they only call when they need help and they drop you when you are in need then they are not real friends anyways and i think everyone has really very few of them
Yeah, you're right. For me, I try my best, but sometimes you need help and you don't find it anywhere, it's sad
Yep, I know what you mean perfectly
That feeling when people only reach out when they need help, not when someone is having a tough time. Thank God for safe recovery.
Yes, I guess that's life's sad reality
Prioritizing self care is what you should be concerned about at this point. Anyone who's unhappy that you no longer help them should be shaded. They're friends but foes.
Concentrate on recovering and getting fully back on your feet and other things will fall into place.
Thank you, self-care is very important, in reality when I am healthy I hardly mind, but I guess we learn a lot from being sick
You're welcome. I hope you'll make self care a priority after now.
Glad to know you're recovering. God is always with you, remember. You don't need fair-weather friends.
Get well soon!
Thank you, I truly appreciate
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Hey jose, I'm so sorry about your health
I've been trying to reach out to you, but you've not been replying, Now I know why,
Please take good care of yourself, and may God almighty God touch his healing hands upon you.
I'll definitely put you in my prayers, wishing you speed recovery. ❤️🩹🌻💚
Thank you for your kind words. Yes, once in a week or few days, I posted about my health, but I mostly have been very ill in-between
Happy to know that you are recovering and not feeling dizzy…
Thank you
Get well soon …