The whole tone of this post is one I could have written. I know exactly where you are -- and how it feels -- and how hard it is to keep going. I started telling the people I write to (and have written to over the years), "You'd hear from me more often if I had something good to report." I hardly send out any mail any more except to wish someone Happy Birthday ... or Happy New Year (like you, with my fingers crossed and a prayer in my heart that someone somewhere hears it.)
Thank you for writing this post. Although there's not much "happy news to report" at least it tells me we are not alone. I look forward to reading you more in the days to come. You are always one of my favorite stops ... whatever the topic ... or the mood ... or what the future looks like that day.
Blessings. <3
Thanks for the kind words @enchantedspirit, appreciate you stopping by.
The struggles are sometimes ironic... got to talking to the guy who was delivering water service shut off notices this morning, and he said it seemed silly that he was out doing what he was doing and that it would include him delivering a notice to himself because even though he's fully employed at two jobs, he's living paycheck-to-paycheck.
I never minded doing hard work; what gets to me is that "a hard day's labor" is reaching the point where it is no longer enough.