Truth is that I get real bad steem burnout sometimes, and I'm in a bout of it now.
You're not the only one. Have had a fair share of that myself but stepping back and assessing where your sources of energy (good and bad) come from is important to do. So focusing on where the good stuff comes from and eliminating where the bad stuff comes from is the way to do it. There's only one of you and if you don't look after yourself, no-one else will hey!
If you can't be yourself on a so-called decentralised platform then where can you be yourself?
And I agree with putting in the best you can when posting to STEEM, it does make a difference and let's hope that we see a bright 2020 (although I'm sure we will, even if it's just down to BTC increasing in value in the interim).