Self-awareness and simple "Being-ness" can take a while to arrive at... for me, a long gradual process of identifying and letting go of the "stories" I would tell myself and believe to be The Truth. The hardest, perhaps... to let go of tendencies to be a Human DO-ing... identifying by what I "do." Of course, the world reinforces that, over and over... what's the first question we hear at gatherings? "So what do you DO?"
Preferably... as little as possible...
Best answer ever.