An explosion happens. Too much loaded up pressure in my knee. The ski binding's set on an ungodly tightness -finally release.
Continuing from: The Inner Journey of Injury and the Road to Recovery
In re-reading the above quote, I serendipitously zoomed in on the point of, "ungodly tightness."
Ungodly Tightness
These two words together are sparking some self-reflection for me;
When I think of God - any God for that matter - This tightness that I describe as 'ungodly' is in regards to what I know and understand about physical well being. Specifically in regards to the experiences of "stiff", "stubborn", "tight", "restricted", "constrained", "restrained"
To be more specific about it....To articulate a reflection in another way,
This "Ungodly Tightness", means to me a crushing and squeezing like experience. The complete opposite of "release" and "letting go". This ungodly tightness is a Strong Hold - a HODL. It's unnatural in a way because there's no real need to always hold ourselves in a squeeze. It's like being under a constant state of pressure and strain.
I find my attitude and relationship within skiing to be reflective and very well indicative of deeper relationships within myself as how I've been caring for myself.
This is a somewhat uncomfortable truth.
Recognizing I've been very unforgiving to myself. Specifically, to the point of pushing and pressing on my points of pain...so much so that I would create an overload of intensity...of buildup that is like a dam that can't hold the water anymore...but then I find a way to compress it further.
Playing around with my vulnerability and opening up,
I am able to see and recocgnize that the way I've existed throughout most of my life has been somewhat cold in regards to expressing my thoughts/feelings/emotions and reflecting upon them - not just burying them but going deep into the roots of the uncomfortable bits that are even kind of traumatic to look at. The things about me that are less than highlight worthy.
I've heard from multiple different sources that the knee's are symbolic of the Ego. Right knee is more to do with the Male side of Ego and the left knee is to do more with the female side of ego.
The male ego is a huge point. It's something I've been deconstructing for some time now. It's wild to see how much I conditioned myself as Male Ego, rather unconsciously programming myself without any real responsibility or accountability for what I was accepting and allowing for myself. It's kind of crazy to recognize how easily susceptible to influence/programming we humans are.
In the next post I will continue with my reflections, realizations and what happened Next. I've just had the experience of my leg exploding at the knee. Is there anyone around to help me? I'm skiing kind of out of bounds. It's getting late in the day.
Cool post, I can really relate to the tightness point having blown both of my Achilles tendons. I means it takes quite a detached state of being to exert the body to such an extent.
I visited one guy dealing with body adjustments and he suggested a very simplistic and commonsensical thing which i overlooked - to give some daily care, especially for the newly injured tendon, by applying a bit of oil and doing some massage. I did it for a while and that felt really cool.
So yeah the point of caring for self to no longer get into such situations is of utmost importance for me at the moment
I cannot imagine what it would be like to experience this. Understanding what has happened, dealing with the pain. Coming to grips with reality. I can play it out in my mind, but without experiencing it, I cannot fully understand it. @ironshield
Nice inspirational blog sir
The ego is the single biggest obstruction to the achievement of anything🙂
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thank you sir for Ungodly Tightness
@worldclassplayer
wow that's quite a post damm thanks for sharing !!!
really helpfull post sir
its beautifull @worldclassplayer
Gorgeious dtawing like it
sports are good for health
I seem to see a picture in your article. But it looks like a painting. I really like the painting, because the painting has a very deep meaning and very difficult for us to guess the meaning of a painting. Therefore I really like the painting. But, is that really a painting?
Thanks for sharing @worldclassplayer