Nobody told you to do that. If you made bad businesses decisions, that's on you.
Or if you do want to beg for sympathy rewards, write a post that says so and see if it gets support. You never know.
And its not $4K either. $3800 "displayed reward" is more like $10000 after factoring in the SBD value. Please stop being disingenuous, you are only making yourself look worse.