We pathetically sympathize with @mrposyble, we only have a bit of idea of exactly how you are feeling deep within.. there's limit to how we can sympathize with but be sure that we are sincere about it.
There hope of resurrection is certain in the Paradise earth under God's kingdom to come, you would see your brother, Udelo again. And the wicked ones will be no more, by then only that meek ones will possess or reside in the earth.
May Jehovah God give you the needed fortitude to bear the loss.