To be content... a requirement for us who desire to serve Him.
I could tell you many things but nothing matters when you feel the way you do.
My best wisdom would be to say, we all struggle with the pains of living in this shell called the human body.
The whole earth groans in travail as a woman who is about to give birth.
Romans 8: 22 For we know that the whole creation groaneth and travaileth in pain together until now. 23 And not only they, but ourselves also, which have the firstfruits of the Spirit, even we ourselves groan within ourselves, waiting for the adoption, to wit, the redemption of our body.
You are not alone, even in the midst of great triumph is tragedy inserted. One man's loss is another’s great gain.
For me there are two things that help me overcome my sorrow when "I can not see the forest for the trees."
I try to remember when I had other struggles and how I have overcome them.
But even better than that. I remember that to really know joy, I must have known sorrow. Through great sorrow comes great joy! Had I never suffered I would never be able to appreciate what I enjoy today.
Let me end with this.
Hebrews 5: 8 Though He were a Son, yet learned He obedience by the things which He suffered; 9 And being made perfect, He became the author of eternal salvation unto all them that obey him; 10 Called of God an high priest after the order of Melchisedec.
This is pretty deep and not many even have a clue who this Melchisedec was. You can find out if you so desire.
Knowing where I'm from, I think you should know. I'm willing to bet @viking-ventures, @josephsavage, and @jarvie know as well. ;)
I'm still pretty new in our Church and sometimes feel that I have not yet been initiated into all the "open secrets" out there - everyone assumes you know, so you don't find out unless you know the questions to ask. Yet, I haven't read Hebrews for a long time - so even with my limited understanding, I really appreciate reading that.
It's okay. That's a name you will hear for a long time.