I thank the people around you who give you support and do not give up on you. Think about them. When we suffer, they suffer. Keep them close for they are your source of strength. Do the same thing for them.
I am blown away by this:
My ancestors believed in woman deity. They were not really Christians. They never knew Jesus Christ before because they worshipped the wrong God. My grandma was a supernatural fighter. She said the enchants are green blooded. She lived 135 years with complete strong teeth and sharp eyes. If she becomes sick, there will be a ceremony to offer a fresh blood from a wild hog to the goddess so she'll be healed. Then, she reached that age. My grandpa can also walk at the suface of the water and can run like the flash. My mother said that he would fly before when going to the market and killed many witches. During the time where my brother was in an accident and he was confined to the hospital, my grandpa chased the witch predated my wounded brother. When my father passed away, he saw him smiling at the window handsigning farewell. But these ancestors converted to Christianity and threw their powers away. If those suprnatural stories exist in real life, why not God? Everytime I hesistate to believe on His real existence, I become thankful to my ancestor's past.
It's great that you have come to realization of a higher being. Yes, we are weak but let us not make that an excuse.
@leeart, thank you for your ever support and for being always supportive with me. I am also lucky to have many friends like you online not just the people around me offline. God bless you.