Please don't delete your post....
Because then I'll look crazy like I'm talking to myself. Also I like re-reading the stuff that you write.
It sounds like your brain operates a lot like mine does: the crazy spin of nonstop activity until finally falling asleep from exhaustion. For me, what I have found that helps with this is
- intense exercise (currently spending hours at the end of each day mowing grass on steep terrain in high heat. It's summer in the northern hemisphere)
- spending some time before bed doing some reading/writing
- regular bed-times
- sex before bed used to be the best way for a great night's sleep and "reset" but for my ex it had the opposite effect so that's been a lot of years. Who knows what the future holds, but 1-3 don't rely on someone else =)
Whether or not I stay asleep often depends on dreams as well as temperature (where I am now has no air conditioning and it can take a while for it to cool off at night)
As for marathon training, I would love to (my little sister actually has trained for and ran a marathon and I'm very proud of her and a little envious) however, I have compressed discs in my back from deployment as well as shoulder reconstruction from another deployment injury, and any run over 5 miles, despite my muscles and lungs being fine, will result in a lot of back and shoulder pain. But definitely wherever I am, some sort of fitness routine will be in place.
That's great you can bike in to work! Be sure to do some blog posts about your cycling- I love reading people's bicycle blogs, it reminds me of the days when the thing I loved most was my bicycle and the adventures I went on with it.
My ability to "rest and reset" has a lot to do with life circumstances.
Right now going through a divorce, trying to sell a home, and not knowing what comes next means a lot of "noise" in my head that can make hitting that "reset" hard. But I am looking forward to reaching that point I've been at for brief periods where things are feeling good again.
I think you may misunderstand posts of my experiences from 10 years ago as where I am currently at. There is no worry of me "looking after myself"- I eat healthy, and get plenty of exercise. I think you would have a hard time picking an "emo" vibe off of me. But it's ok I'll be emo with you so that you aren't the only emo one.
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I definitely believe in an afterlife, just not the Christian version. Human self-awareness and ability to think about non-physical entities demonstrates that we are more than physical beings which seems to indicate that death of the body will not mean death of the spirit. What comes next, well I don't think anyone knows that for sure: if we did, then it would make life too easy, right?
There is only one more "demonic" piece it's not a continuing part of what I create, just an interesting anecdote of the part of my life I've been writing about. I am pretty sure I could "find" that part of me again and "let it out" but that sounds kind of "emo" =D
Hey look I found a bumblebee today but it was very happy to gather clover nectar and was not at all interested in me and seemed fairly non-radioactive.
Psst...I’m trying not to junk up your serious post! I can put it back I guess. I was just wanting you to have read. Like who needs a fricken thesis on their blog posts! Lol
You are taking my serious "emo" content and turning it into a happy place and a happy conversation that makes me happy. Happy happy happy. It's what you do best don't fight it!
Now carry on with your thesis on happy.
WTH?! You were standing close enough to take a photo of our collective STEEM wealth and you did not lock it in?!
To say you suck would be too mild! You are the world’s worst get-rich buddy! I have to work, I’ll finish giving you a piece of my mind when my part of the world sleeps!
Omg... So close...
PS: You are totally emo!