if you don't stay asleep much like you used to be one reason could be high cortisol or adrenaline, which is the case if you are always too stressed and your brain is always in alert mode
having to rely on others to get things done is super annoying, like when you wait an exam and the hospital never calls...can't do much about that anyways
you gotta do what you feel like to do, if you burnout or your health fails, you won't be able anymore to do even 1 minute of hive