True story? If so my condolences amigo, that's fucking tough...
My therapy has been art, and to transform what hurts the most into art-works. That turns it into something meaningful, and the more art you make, the more you can turn all the shitty things into something worth living for.
The whole truth and nothing but. I've always been an artist. I've just had something black and crusty thing inside stopping me from getting to that "point". So I'm trying to take my power back, so to speak.
Only one way to drive out darkness brotherman! Light... I look forward to seeing you share your works here! maybe they are called paintings, pain things for a reason. There's definitely a healing element to art.