Hey guys, this is something that was written by my friend and i thought it is interesting so i am uploading it ( with her permission ) read and upvote i bet this moment had happened in your life before, who know it will bring that memory back ^^
It’s not always about loving someone with reasons or unconditionally, but it is to love someone so deeply that you don’t even think about the reasons at all. The feelings that count.
I always thought that when people say, “it tears me apart”, “ it broke me into pieces”, I thought that people just exaggerating. I thought it doesn’t make any sense, not until I feel it myself.
It’s funny when a motivational quote saying that, stand together with what represents you the most, and the first thing that came up in my mind is a banana.
Now I am okay to give my all, knowing that God gives me al His love. But what I can’t stand is the fact that, another people also do that. It freaks me out, that I am scared if I will hurt them in an kind of way.
I am pissed. Very very very pissed. I really want to say, Fck it, Fck you, just do as You like, and I will follow. I really did say it tho. Now I’m kinda feel guilty, because it is not polite.
I just want to be a good person, so can people just shut the f*ck up and not making me swearing, cursing, or having any intention to kill..
I love it and kinda hate it, when I look at the sky, my anxiety, problems, worries, they are like just disappear. I love it because it makes me relieved, I hate it because it hurts my neck.
The problem with having anxiety is that, I just can’t, I am afraid, I am not capable of anything, I am not worthy. I don’t want anyone to get near me, I just want to be alone, I am broken. But please, can anyone help me?
Do we need reasons for everything? Why would we need a reason to why we like to eat donuts, why we like to run, why we like to sleep, why we like pizza? Can we just like something because we like it?
They push me to my limit, and when I am explode, why am I the mean one?
I will not apologize for who I am now that I know my worth.
I know it seems complicated for you and you don’t understand now, but believe me, later you will find the answer, when you don’t even look for it.
If you don’t know how to support someone, at least don’t bring them down. Just be kind, will you?
The thing is I am okay to be the second option, even the last, or maybe be the person, people look when they need something. It’s fine. But what is not fine is with the people with full of love, when you just look at them, you feel the love overwhelming. It’s just like, ‘stop, stop, can you stop? I don’t deserve this, you are too kind, don’t go near me.’ That is the person I’m scared the most. It’s like when you ask for only a glass of water, they will give you the ocean instead.
Even I’m not in your mind anymore, not even in yur chatting list, or we’re not even friends anymore, please do know that I will still always love you, even thou it is a different kind of love.
I am mad, I’m very mad, but I don’t want to be mad, because I love you more than the tendency of how mad I am.
I still love poeple, when I don’t even ask how they’re going now. Just trust my ability to stalk.
I expect too much that’s why it hurts. Then, I learn not to expect. But, to be honest I can not differentiate between expecting and hoping. And we should never stop hoping, right?
I will not ask for anything, I won’t beg for anything, I will not expect anything, I will not demand for anything. I will only accept what is coming for me.
God, I can not promise you that I will be a person that you want me to be, I can’t even promise you anything, but I will do my best. Thank you for loving me.
Hopefully you guys like it ^^