RE: I left my first (and still only) love, bc I wanted to live abroad. This was the last letter I wrote him:

[futureunknown]

I was more scared of always wondering 'what if;;;' than I was scared of losing what I already had.
I was just out of college, and obviously didn't look around to actually see everything.
But then again, leaving like that made me realise that I should always look around and not only focus on only looking ahead!