I see your perspective.
After mulling much of this over I have come to the conclusion that there is a Creator God, and this supreme demiurge is the God of the Bible.
The Bible is full of time riddles and synchronized number codes - and I believe this magnificent text is virtually unchanged since its conception.
I believe God is "behind the curtain" so to speak, and the elite cabal is the apex of sin and evil in this world. When you see the actions and plans of those in power - and the spirit they work in - you will have no faith in humanity. The outlook is bleak and their is only doom for those who oppose the spirit of "Antichrist" at work in the hearts and minds of those in power.
The Bible prophesies all of this. I believe that Jesus Christ is of the son of the Father God the Creator. I believe the Earth is only 6000 years old, and the last 2000 since Christ is wrapping up right now as we speak - and will conclude with the arrival of the Antichrist on the world scene and the carrying out of a Nuclear Holocaust.
Both the Antichrist and the fearful destruction of the entire world by fire are prophesied in the Bible throughout Revelation, Daniel, and many of the books of the "prophets".
Based off of Hollywood Trump/End of the World codes it appears to be that Trump's clone will spark a global Nuclear holocaust, killing the 45th president Trump and burning the USA (and the entire northern hemisphere) to ashes. The elite will be underground by that time, and will at the proper time to install the New World Order from the ashes of the old world.
Trump's clone will emerge with these elites and claim to be the old Trump, making him appear to be an immortal god. According to the Bible the whole world "will marvel when they see the Beast who was not and is again".
(it's the Revelation 13:3 spectacle)
This post-apocalyptic period is called the "Great Tribulation" (terrible trouble).
The Bible says it will last 7 years, according to Daniel and Revelation - as well as foreshadowing in other famous stories throughout the Bible.
In the end, Jesus wins for He is "Lord of lords" and He will set up an everlasting kingdom of righteousness forever and ever, and only those who are called and chosen and faithful will dwell in it.
I sincerely hope that you will find a relationship with Jesus through the Spirit of God soon as I already have. I find my strength and comfort in Jesus Christ and his promise of eternal life for those who endure life in him.
For the time being, this is Satan's fallen and cursed world. But not for long!
Brother, I already have a relationship with Jesus but in my own way, away from the literalism of the Christian believe. He has guided every step of my path so far and has led me to see magic many times - literally. He has given me the ability to see things that have been kept hidden before. We all have a role to play in this incredible time and I am walking firmly on my path towards eternity. It is funny how both of us are so close together in their thinking and yet so far away at the same time. The trauma of this worldly existence play tricks on our human minds and we are all wrapped in endless onion layers of psy-ops by evil tricksters on both sides of the veil of perception.
I respect your believe and hope it gives you strength and power, to walk your own path, without harming your fellow beings. May you find your own trauma(s) and heal yourself from them to return to your true self. I am trying to do the same.
Do not look without - look within.
I believe in the literal teachings of Jesus, and I personally believe that He is real and will come again to Earth like he promised with power and great glory to miraculously deliver and collect his chosen ones. I believe that God and his millions of angelic servants live in a higher dimension, and will bend space and time when they come "down" again to destroy the Earth at the Father's command.
These are my favorite verses... they describe an awesome picture of what will take place, and how to live in the meantime prior to this event.
Matthew 24:44
Therefore you also must be ready, for the Son of Man is coming at an hour you do not expect.
John 14:3
And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come again and will take you to myself, that where I am you may be also.
1 Peter 5:8
Be sober-minded; be watchful. Your adversary the devil prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour.
Revelation 16:15
Behold, I am coming like a thief! Blessed is the one who stays awake, keeping his garments on, that he may not go about naked and be seen exposed!
Revelation 1:7
Behold, he is coming with the clouds, and every eye will see him, even those who pierced him, and all tribes of the earth will wail on account of him. Even so. Amen.
Take care brother - I love you.