eMOTE Much?
Maybe it would s because chattyMercury is hanging out in laid back Pisces, welling us to talk about things without talking about them at all ... or maybe it is the fact that we all hide sometimes and would rather stuff the feelings deep down rather than try confront. In either case, who hasn’t had a moment where they felt like shit and told ourselves all the things that float around in our heads?
Inner Dialogues Are a Bitch
Our internal selves aren’t always known for being nice. Sometimes we say the most horrid things to ourselves. This drawing originally began as a simple doodle that I drew to process some of the things that I say to my own self.
Let It Go
Someone once told me that by making it like this I am propagating the problem, confirming the negatives that I say to myself. I found that to be the opposite. I’ve gone through periods where I tried to be nothing but positive and the truth is, it just doesn’t work. It’s like overtime negatives add up and they are even in my voice. Sometimes they are my boyfriend telling me that I am not sexy enough, or “I wish your butt was bigger.” Granted, he’s never even hinted any words like this to me. Ever. But there are those times when he goes and looks at someone else on a porn video, even though I have made plenty.
I know that I’m enough and I don’t think that I’m an attractive but insecurities that happen when he chooses a sexy workout video or some porn check that I will never look like , he might as well say the things that I hear in my head. Other times they are my mother, ironically calling me Thunder Thighs Who always wanted my hips to be smaller for some reason. I was thought it was odd that she had an investment and how big my ass or my hips were, but she made a mark on my inner dialogue. There’s my sixth grade teacher who tells me I have so much potential and I’m wasting it and there is my ex-husband telling you that with my fear I will never 18 gre Who always wanted my hips to be smaller for some reason. I was thought it was odd that she had an investment and how big my ass or my hips were, but she made her mark on my inner dialogue. There is my sixth grade teacher who tells me I have so much potential and I’m wasting it and there is my ex-husband telling you that with my fear I will never get to greatness.
Over the years I’ve collected quite a number of voices up there, sometimes it’s hard to distinguish them. Most of the time I know who the zoo and for some reason I repeat them out loud if I am not thinking about it.
That’s kind of artwork has become a sort of therapy for me. It is the way that I can get the words out without confirming them or accidentally saying them and making me feel worse. Turning it, the words, into art and putting it out there for other people to see means that I’m practicing transparency and I’m sure there’s someone out there that thinks that they are the only one here is these thing that’s kind of artwork has become a sort of therapy for me.
It is a way that I can get the words out without confirming them or accidentally saying them and making me feel worse. Turning the words an art and putting it out there for other people to see means that I’m practicing transparency and I’m sure there’s someone out there that thinks that they are the only one that has a mean, nasty internal dialogue.
I know that I used to be like that when I was much younger and I couldn’t fathom that this is just how a lot of people were. I didn’t realize that the world was filled with depressed people and a matter how hard your life is somebody always is going to see their life is harder or is going to consider a lesser struggle, well, what you would consider a lesser struggle, equally as depressing as your worst day.
Art like this is a reminder that it’s not a competition and that we are all in this together.
What? You mean Everyone Feels Like This???
That’s a pretty oblivious statement but I can’t print any fingers. This is because I know that I used to be like that when I was much younger and I couldn’t fathom that this is just how a lot of people were. I didn’t realize that the world was filled with depressed people and a matter how hard your life is somebody always is going to see their life is harder or is going to consider a lesser struggle, well, what you would consider a lesser struggle, equally as depressing as your worst day.
Art like this is a reminder that it’s not a competition and that we are all in this together. In fact, I am willing to bet that we all have said some variety of the following.
This sketch is the one that I use and superimpose it on top of the digital photo manipulation. Most of this art work, the original artwork above is my own drawing but I did use my face as the templates for the three faces to represent the main three trees of negativity in my brain. Sometimes there’s more than that and you will notice that there will be more faces in my heart
This catches the one that I use and superimpose it on top of the digital photo manipulation. Most of this art work, the original artwork above is my own drawing but I did use my face as the template for the three faces to represent the main three trees of negativity in my brain. Sometimes there’s more than that and you will notice that there will be more faces in my art.
Stop the Shame
I hate the fact that they’re supposed to be shame felt in regards to depression and that is something that many of us have to hide. If n used to have to hide it but no more. To be honest, I don’t know if I’m capable anymore. It’s not healthy and it isn’t good for anyone. Hiding your mental turmoil may cause you to look strong on the outside but only causes the issues to fester. Dwelling can do the same thing.
So... What can we do?
I am a big proponent of taking the negative and turning it into something positive. For me, art is positive and when I do a piece that I’m proud of l, it is a help to my self-esteem. As a bonus, eMOTE art is a way to show others that they are not alone in their low points. The final positive about eMOTE art it can also retrain the brain to have a new coping skill or an alternative means to deal.
We must not forget that coping skills are always excellent for the mental health toolbox!
Got Art?
If you have some emotive pieces, I would love to see them! Feel free to post a link or insert an image below.
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I love the top piece especially. So much powerful emotion there.
Please do not take this the wrong way, only saying this because I know I personally like my posts to look as good as possible and would like something like this pointed out to me. There are an unusual number of (unintentionally) repeated sections of paragraphs and misused words here - were you using a voice-to-text by any chance? I think this post could use a re-read in the light of day and an edit. Feel free to ignore me and tell me to fuck off of course if this is not appropriate :) I think what you are trying to say is powerful, and the art is powerful, but in sections it is almost unreadable with the mangled and repeated phrases.
Much love - Carl
Haha no it is good that you pointed it out and yes I was using talk to text. Of course I see this week's later. Ugh. I was having a week.... Or two.