Hi, guys!
I'm still in a state where my head is significantly interfering with my life. It's incredibly difficult for me to even get out of bed, let alone do anything. I've made a deal with myself to shoot at least three videos a day so that my work doesn't stall, so that I'm doing something, but even that is incredibly difficult. At the very least, I read the books I need to review for publishers, and that's at least something. But right now, that's all I do; I don't have the energy for anything else.
So right now, I need to finish this post, and then get out of bed and shoot three videos for publishers, so that at least the bare minimum of work gets done. And I have absolutely no energy for it. But I understand that if I do nothing at all, I'll accumulate a crazy amount of unfinished work, and then it will be completely unclear how I'll even catch up on this incredible volume that somehow needs to be accomplished. So I need to get myself out of bed and do the bare minimum I've agreed to do every day. Just three videos for the blog—that's really not much.
Also, it's much better to film book reviews right after you read them, while the plot is still fresh in your mind. I've read three books in the last two days, and now I just need to share my impressions of them on camera. It's not that hard; I just need to pull myself together and talk a little in front of the camera. So I need to get through this.
But I'm having a hard time even getting up. I have to literally drag myself out of bed by the ears. I hope I can do it. And it's really bothering me that I feel like I'm doing everything poorly, even though I'm doing it as usual. This is all the result of depression.
Have a great day, everyone!
More of this please ❤️