Hi, guys!
We've been without electricity for two days now. You'd think it would be stressful, but for some reason I feel incredibly calm. It's probably strange, but for some reason I'm having this strange mental reaction. Even my depression seems to be getting better, fading into the background. It's truly strange, but for some reason it's happening this way. I've noticed this for a long time now; it's been happening for years, throughout the entire war.
This has always happened in stressful situations, too. It's probably some kind of distorted perception. Maybe my mind interprets it as something bad that's already happened, and there's no point in worrying anymore.
Yesterday there was no power at all all day; it seemed to be on for a while during the night, but when the girls and I woke up in the morning, it was already gone. The bad news is that there's practically no internet anymore; I have to share it from my phone, and that won't last long either. This is a bit unsettling, but otherwise, I'm filled with a strange sense of calm.
Yesterday I wrote down my plans for next year, but I'm not done yet. There's still some room on the list, so I can come up with something else. Of course, writing plans when you're depressed probably isn't a good idea, but whatever.
Right now, I basically feel like nothing will work out, but I hope that's a false feeling.
Have a great day, everyone!
