Hi, guys!
Yesterday, I was supposed to receive a bookcase I'd been waiting for three weeks, and my husband and I were supposed to assemble and put it away that same day. Everything seemed to be going according to plan until we took it out of the box and discovered the manager I'd ordered it from had mixed up the part numbers, and as a result, they'd delivered the completely wrong bookcase! I was furious and simultaneously very upset because I'd been waiting for it for so long, and for my autistic mindset, any change in plan, especially such a major one, is a complete disaster.
I spent the rest of the day trying to pull myself together, which was incredibly difficult. I can actually get physically ill from things like this; I'm not one to just up and change my plans, especially when it's something so big, and a new bookcase is a big deal. As a result, I'll be trying to get my health back on track all day today, and I'll be lucky if I can breathe and move normally until at least tomorrow, because right now my body and mind are completely refusing to cooperate.
No matter what I think or do, I just feel really bad; my head can't comprehend that this situation has happened and refuses to accept it. Everything feels absolutely terrible.
So today I'll try to somehow regulate my state and do everything I can to feel at least a little better, although I don't know how yet. These kinds of breakdowns are nothing new for me, but they're always very difficult to deal with.
I'll probably just stay in bed all day and read books, especially ones that interest me at the moment. I have a huge backlog of books to read, so I'm sure I'll find something suitable there.
Have a great day, everyone!
