Hi, guys!
It's been almost a week since my mental state has deteriorated dramatically. I have trouble even getting out of bed, let alone doing anything. It's hard not only to cook, but even to eat. But I can't destroy what I've worked so hard to build over the past eight months, so I'll keep fighting, even if it's in tiny steps, but I'll keep moving forward. So now I'll write this post, and after that I'll do my best to finally get out of bed and shoot at least a few videos so I have content for my blog. Then, if I finally have the strength and courage, maybe I'll take the first tiny step toward editing my first book or starting a second.
Right now, I'm still terrified of returning to writing books, but I understand that I just have to start, otherwise it won't work. It's that simple, you just have to jump into it, like into cold water, and everything will be fine from there, the process will just start and then it will move on its own, everything will move forward. So you just need to gather your strength and start doing it. You need to decide to do it. But for some reason, I keep putting it off and putting it off.
Especially in states like mine now, it's really hard for me to get started. But I have a clear understanding that the main thing is to start, and then there's little that can stop me. So the main thing is to overcome my anxiety, open that very file I created a long time ago, and make it so I simply open it every day and add text. And everything will be fine, everything will simply continue, the creation will grow and blossom. The main thing is to understand this for yourself.
So the main thing now is to decide, give yourself permission, and just start. This is something I've been unable to do for three months, and it's long overdue. I don't know what's stopping me. I just need to take a deep breath and finally just jump forward.
Have a great day, everyone!
