Hello guys!
I hope you all have a wonderfull day.Recently i was feeling really down (more than usual) so i decided to write about it.
I admit....I deal with depression for over 1 year and a half.Let me tell you...it completely changes your life in all aspects.Friends, familly, work, everything is harder to interact with. Personally, I got depression after my first girlfriend left me.I remember wanting to commit suicide because I felt like my life ended.I failed to see that I had a loving family, good friends etc. All was in my mind.I overthink a lot and that amplified my sorrow and sadness.I refused to talk to a specialist and leave the house for an entire month.All of that could have been resolved just by listening to my family and friends.
You see...my girfriend was a big part of me.She was part of the family and we were best friends too.The majority of my life was sorrounding my girlfriend and when that stopped i felt empty and alone...but again that was because of my thinking.
!!!Remember this: Every time you are feeling alone and sad, think that somewhere someone cares a lot about you and all things happen with a role.It might be the end of a love story but this can mean a start for a new one.
But for me depression hasn't cease to exist.I don't feel like at the start of it but i still deal it it at some form.
For example almost all the time in the morning when i wake up i feel a brick pressed by my chest.A sentiment of sadness but without any motive.It takes me a lot to get out of bed and do work or chores because i don't have any motivation.
I became an introverted person.I can't seem to have fun when I party or go out with my friends.I tent to remain outside conversations.
And it pains me when i think how i was before...I wish i can turn back time and go when i was happy and had no problems and issues.I wish from the depths of my hearth to wake up in the morning smiling, to have a person near me that loves me and can talk to...but for now i need to work with what i have.
Advice to you guys: Don't let depression stay in your life.As soon as you feel like you are not yourself go see a medic or talk to someone specialised.Don't let it put roots in your brain like I did because it way more harder to deal with it then.
See you soon with another post
Link to the start of the series:https://steemit.com/introduceyourself/@morticon124/life-is-a-journey-1-new-blog-on-my-page
Link to last episode:https://steemit.com/blog/@morticon124/life-is-a-journey-5-weed
Have been there
All alone in the darkness
Where life's circumstance come to play against you
Making you feel like no good
When the darkness is so hazy
You just cant see whatever light at the end of the tunnel
Get up! Get up! When things go wrong, dont go wrong with them
Dont give in to defeat!
You can rise again
Only if you would but give it another chance
powerful words indeed