Okay for thought number 2.
I have found in life that we can never really go back even if we want to.
we learned and grew too much for anything to be as it was. We think differently, we feel different, and act a tad different too.
Now just because I found it impossible to go back and try it again doesn't mean it can not happen but I have seen and felt deep loves like you describe above. I think they come into our lives when most needed. We learn the lessons we needed to and got to fly close to the sun for a while but when reality hits it was never something that could be lived over a long period of time.
I will forever be grateful I do know the feeling of love that you have described above. Felt it more than once. Yet on both occasions when trying to meet again the past always got in the way and it wasn't fun in the end.
I learned from these times that looking back is needed to remember what you needed to learn. Yearning for the past only makes living in the present that much harder. Does make for great poems and songs though. XoX
If by chance your paths naturally cross again that is something different. If you go looking for what once was is where you can run into trouble and oh so much hurt.
You are not the same person that lived through the poem above. You learned too many other life lessons to be and they too have lived and learned and are not the same person they once were.
Anyway, for what it is worth these thoughts wanted to be shared. :D
Ah.... thank you, angel :)
Yes... I pined for some time and looked and waited for a long time too. I've done that for people I've met that resonated with me. Not many. But a few.
Thing is... in a way I was hoping to be rescued in some way or avoiding committing to life in another. It's a fantasy. A way of staying in one place that's "safe" in fact.
In the last short while I've decided to go it along for the next while and commit to myself for a change. I've been single for three years now. Not dated. Stay isolated. And have done quite a bit of soul searching, deep meditation, asceticism and have become strong in a way that is hard to "match" now, I guess.
I think when you get used to being alone in many ways it becomes hard to let go of. I enjoy my solitude too much these days. It gives me time to create as well... and just be.
But it is only now... after three years... I am really starting to appreciate it if that makes any sense. Like. I'm happy in it even if it is a bit lonely at times. The freedom I would not exchange for anything.
I do wish I had met someone I could have made a life with for 26 years! That must be some adventure! Wow. But I've never been ready, I think. And when I may have been someone else interfered and we los each other in the chaos.
But for now... I feel as though I'm really only stepping into my true power and nature at the age of 51. Always men. And women at times. But always others that helped me avoid myself and got me pretty lost. I focused on them and forgot myself.
I think it's time I focused on my own dreams and ambitions for a while! :)
You seem so young. But so wise too. I can't quite make you out. You're an interesting human, Snook!
No truer words have ever been written!!
I am 58 and started getting white hair at 16. My husband calls it life when people are shocked how my hair is solid pure white.
I am shocked to say I have been married 26 years. LOLL but it being Monday....I think the topic of marriage should not be discussed today. :D
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Oh wow! I thought you were a whippersnapper. Your energy is super light and full power. Love it!
You hair sounds amazing. I'm considering shaving mine off at this stage... new beginnings. And a commitment to a path and lifestyle for the next while anyway. I'll totally make a video if I do.
I think marriage should be discussed more. People seem to think it's a fairy tale ending and that's probably why so many marriages don't last! It's a beautiful thing... two people making that kind of commitment.
I would do it again. Just without the ceremony and legalities.
I have a friend that says I am a true Aquarius.
She is correct on many things so I trust she is correct on this point too.
Not sure that means anything to you or not...
Oh. I try to study everything for myself. Curious by nature!
So yes it does :) But I try not to define myself with labels too much these days.
I'm not learned enough about astrology to have yet figured out wether that impacts my personality or whether if I name myself something I become that personality if that makes sense?
Having said that I've always mostly been drawn to other Virgos, Gemini and Aquarius... so that's pretty interesting to observe :)
it does :D It is why if I need to write something or do something I will first try it on my own before looking to see how others might have tackled doing the same thing. Also why I never Google illnesses. LOL
as for astrology...it is not something I went out to learn.. My friend, whom I met here, did it for a living and she made it interesting to learn about. We would have long talks and discussions about it. I did learn a lot from her. But to go out and seek others' advice? No
Her husband died suddenly this past year and I have not heard from her since then. I miss her and worry about her. I miss her wisdom too. But she needs her time alone. I just hope and pray she is reaching out to others so she doesn't waste away.
Anyway...
I am by no means an expert at it and do not have the wanting to learn more. I think I am just missing my dear friend and hoping she is okay.
I think part of getting older is you start to realize how smart you are. You stop looking towards others for your answers and start looking inside yourself, at your strengths and weaknesses, and begining to realize just how strong you really are and how you can do anything if it makes you happy and if something doesn't make you happy you Can just stop doing it.
It's a liberating feeling that gets better the more you have faith in yourself and how strong you really are.
Okay I am off to try and sleep.
Happy Tuesday!!
Google Doctor is dangerous :)
My dear friend and awesome fellow traveler (who actually brought me here and helped me get going @julianhorack ) is deep into astrology. He's the guy to talk to if you want to know more.
This person is the real deal.
I'm so cautious to trust anyone that thinks they're an expert at anything. I mean... things are changing and evolving all of the time and just when you think you know something, it turns out there's more to learn so :)
Funny! I literally just suggested to my eleven year old he take the same approach you mention. i.e. find a tutorial to learn something because it's faster taking suggestions and tips from those who've learned more / are further along... but...
and here's the but... don't let that stop you from expanding on the skill or trying new things.
Make things your own. He has an incredibly creative way of looking at the world and I don't want to suffocate that!
I hope you're already resting well. Happy Wednesday for when you return 🌘
And no... one can never go back... not after a certain point. You're right! <3