Because I know what it is like to lose a mother and those girls are young, they have not come to the perspective I have, which has been found in all the many deaths I’ve been through over my life, from an early age — I mourn for them because they have had a mother like her to cook and play art, and dance, and be grumpy, and sit with them, and now she’s not there in person — I mourn for the void I know they are feeling and the complex of abandonment that children gain when a death like this creeps into a childhood. I worked to get where I am, I died to live — there was a time when I would have been in deep mourning for her, but I just am not and have not been that person in years. I have nothing but love and joy in my heart for Tammy, no damage to hold me back and keep me down. No regrets. She and I went through so much. I kept it out of this post but she came to me in Dream before I knew in “waking”, plus I had pulled cards and saw that there was going to be a death, and one of my bone dice of my great gran’s fell to the ground. I knew, as I usually do. The only deaths I’ve felt great sadness over are ones where there was a sense of guilt, or regret. This is pure love. Yes, I’ve been crying, but I’m not in mourning.
Thank you for your very kind words and love. <3