@nelinoeva Oh - saw this now. Somehow I had missed this post. Very sorry to hear about your great loss. Losing someone dear to us is indeed very hard. I lost my father 4 years ago and still can not come to terms with the fact that he is no longer with us.
Take care and be strong. There are some things that are out of our control. We have to come to terms with the reality.
May the dear departed soul get eternal peace.
Thank you very much for your words of comfort @vm2904.