no no.. lol didn't mean that bread was the culprit!
my issues were beneath the gluten but the gluten was causing a lot of toxicity in the brain that were compounding it. keto is an awesome way to clear toxicity from the brain also! as it takes away all gluten naturally!
I think we first started talking when your children were still in your life. I remember hearing them in the background on a voice call. I'm so sorry they're out of your life right now and hope you can find a way to get them back.
it must be terribly painful to not see them. Is there any way that they can contact you at all??
So sorry for all the pain you've gone through - but you ARE going to pull out of it. Just keep taking steps, one at a time, they all add up. Healing will come.
Nope mother took them to oregon. I am not financially secure. I have life long allergies and other issues from being va xxed as child and not supposed to be vaxxed anymore because of this as a result I am concerned Family court would mandate I get vaccines just to have them back, I quit my job for HIVE as well as ptsd condition my job exasperated, Mother, even though she was one who got them vaccine exemptions did not want me having any control over them so got them vaxxed and put them in public schooling just to spite me and so she could be full time worker in Oregon. I started sending her money when stimuluses and unemployment benefits hit like thousands of dollars but she refused to let talk to them so I stopped sending money. Family court said she was in contempt of court because of illegally filing taxes on kids for three years thus preventing welfare assistance, dodging CPS, and finally kidnapping them. Part of problem is she is former sex worker I rehabilited and does not need counselling per the family court judge and nevada law for former sex workers.
I have no family, friends or any way to logically support them so I have chosen not to peruse them at all as I feel it would impact their lives too negatively and my mental condition. Best to move on and accept I am stupid and make stupid decisions. Only reason I have left to live really is to blog and support artists on hive. It does not help having society be all anti-male anti-white and christian, middle name is christian too lol, which only makes me paranoid and dwell on surface level crap such as main stream media propaganda. I know its not the way the media portrays it to be necessarily.
I understand your concern and looking for solutions but bottom line is I made bad decisions with mother and saw my Career in the entertainment business as evil and sick long before I was cancelled.
On HIVE healing happens for me. I find very little racism, great community and people like you who care. So thanks for listening. I appreciate you and I wish you many more years of success on HIVE and in all you do to help others. This world needs more people like you who care and finds purpose in helping others no matter how often it can seem it is not fully appreciated as all I do is try to help people and it can be daunting.
This is rough. but your choice to let them live without any negative impact is truly what a good parent does. Its painful... I know. but to let them live without the added stress... its a beautiful thing you're doing. and hopefully one day - when they are adults - who knows. who really knows? we can just hope.
I'm glad that you're getting healing through what you're doing on Hive.. so many are!
so - many - are! its truly remarkable to see
sending a hug to you. keep living one day at a time. as my friend @wesphilbin says... "tomorrow is the goal"
Hey thanks for listening! Last person from HIVE who tried to listen to my traumas I bit pretty hard. I still feel really horrible about doing.
It is hard to even discuss 1% of any of this to anyone even to psychologists who, just last year before being diagnosed and looking for answers I made several cry and blew many of their minds away with my story. Did I mention my father was a top corrupt las vegas cop who killed my mother at 11 years old? yeah my story gets even more traumatic lol. I am surprised you digested even half of what I said. You are a really good listener!
Wes is a good dude too and yeah tomorrow is the goal! Except with HIVE maintaining my HP mana and curating content from all over the world is a very cool goal; all the while encouraging others to continue utilizing HIVE and to further their goals here. With Hive I can throw away all web 2.0 and use web 3.0 to see that my traumas are nothing compared to others who struggle to eat and live under authoritarian governments whom many choose to focus on the positive and interact with myself and others in such a humble yet loving way. The community of Hive as a whole is such an inspiring community as a whole. Thanks again for listening and having a specific skill and rare skill set that allowed me to open up with out causing yourself or me grief. You rock!
On another note... I wonder if the HIVE monthly burn will happen between the 4-6th or on christmas like it was for Thanksgiving last month! Nothing like a big Green candle and everyone singing HIVE's praises to get a person in the Holiday spirit🎅HO HO HO!!!
You rock Dreem and maybe I will revisit shadows pimp your post thing again especially since you are more involved with that! Its just I am really sketched out with discord due to its extremely hackable nature. It would be nice to help further Artists and their content with yall!
Happy Holidays Dreem!
yes i do remember that you shared that about your parents - years ago... :(
and hehehe i do know how to listen objectively and hear people and their pain and know how to digest it.
I'm not stranger to pain...
PYPT is a great place - always! it's a nice little family that just keeps growing. I love making time for it every week!!! :)