Beautifully written River, I can't believe it's a year already!
Our world indeed changes when losing someone so close, but is it not wonderful when we find ourselves in a new kind of world, one where we often REALLY see things and appreciate the little things in life.
Ghost Dad is very proud of his little surfer girl, that I'm sure of.
He was really proud of me. I am sure you understand when I say I worried I wouldn't have any one lovee so unconditionally but that's not true.
I know you've suffered your own loss and gone on to find joy - I hope Mum does too as she finds everything a bit colourless without him.
I totally understand! I felt almost 'abandoned' in the beginning, thoughts like 'how dare he leave me'! That feeling came and went! I know I will never find a love like that again, but am super blessed with wonderful friends and family who have helped create this new 'world' for me. I am sure your Mum will find a different kind of joy as well!
Time heals and takes the edge off the pain, just like a wound, and while it takes longer for some, one thing that doesn't go away, is the missing!