I have to say, all this is no coincidence, because yesterday, as a special occasion and moment, I had a very sincere conversation with my partner where I told him about the things I would like to do in my next life, and although this is with a view to the future, I think it is basically about being reborn, that is, going back to the past and doing those things that for some reason I did not do.
Coincidentally, I discovered the Silver Bloggers community as a task to find a muse. I haven't been in a good mood lately, and the economic situation in Venezuela doesn't help at all, so my desire to create fictional stories, even though deep down I want to do it, is impossible for now, so I'm in a total writer's block.
This community that I recently discovered has a very nice initiative where they ask users or bloggers a thoughtful and very personal question, something that undoubtedly does not require much effort on my part, so in a way I am already grateful to have come across not only the community, but also this initiative that I did not know I needed.
Well, at the beginning I talked to you about coincidences, and it's really déjà vu because my thoughts these days are basically about my childhood and what I miss and might have changed.
If I could have the opportunity to go back to the beginning of my own decisions, where I had the power to reason, think, interpret, and analyze things responsibly, I would have liked to believe in myself above all else.
I think this is one of the biggest weaknesses I've carried with me in a way for many years. Well, I'm 31 now, and I remember that my insecurities started when I was maybe 15 or a little younger, where not only did people point it out to me, but I was also doing it myself, which was worse.
Returning to that time means stopping doing things for others and doing most things for myself. I am convinced that sacrificing myself so many times for other people, or defending them even when they didn't ask me to, brought countless complications not only to my social life, but also to my current health.
Finally, I would tell that child not to waste time or opportunities, no matter how far-fetched or “unnecessary” they may seem at the time.
It is impossible to give myself a single piece of advice with so much life experience behind me, but I believe that these three in particular are interrelated and would be the fundamental basis for many things not to be different, but rather even better than they could be today.
I could go into more detail about the reasons why I mention these three elements that I would change in my life if I had the opportunity to go back in time, but I think it's best not to, or perhaps Hive is no longer the right place to record it.
In the end, that child decided to survive as best he could, and thanks to that child, I am here.
The Silverbloggers Chronicles - Prompt #9 - Back to the Future Style
The @silverbloggers community is an incredible creative space for each of us, especially for those like me who are approaching 60. But the Monday initiatives are good for everyone.
Regarding these three things you mention, it seems to me that each of the good or bad things that happened to us in life are part of our current personality, just as you say at the end of your post, because the good things made us live and the bad things allowed us to grow.
Life is the sum of positive and negative things, good and not-so-good relationships, and everything that has surrounded us throughout our lives.
I hope the muse comes back to life because we miss her stories. Things are very complicated here in Cuba, and taking refuge in my @hive friends has been a balm amidst so much pain.
Have a great day.
Cheers and greetings.
Thank you so much for always keeping an eye on my posts and for always giving a topcomment.
I think that with those changes my personality would have been a little softer than it already is, but you are right about something, I think that without those bad things that happened I would not have been able to learn to resist with courage and in a way, create a shield against that same evil that plays to harm us.
I have heard from the news that things in Cuba are very complicated lately, I hope everything gets better for you and your family, of course, for all of Cuba.
Thank you for your good wishes and have an excellent weekend. Greetings and best regards.
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This is a major reason that we have created our sb-chronicles prompts.
I know I used to always do things for others without thinking about it. But I wised up to how people treated me, and latterly have changed, and only do things for people that deserve it.
I don't regret having helped people and done things for others; however, I do think I should have been more balanced and considered the consequences that would fall on me.
It's an excellent initiative, as I mentioned before, truly rewarding to be part of it.
That's right, it's not about erasing what happened, it's about realizing what we did and perhaps what could have been better. Thank you for sharing your story.
I'm grateful for your comment and for taking the time to read my contribution to this initiative, which I believe is excellent for helping us vent, unblock ourselves, and in some way feel supported.