It is much more expected for things to go wrong than right if we are to really look at life, or maybe it is just me. Life is atypical in many ways with its moments- one moment, you are sure of everything, the next moment, everything falls apart and the next one, confusion just sets in and everything just goes crazy and it could either get crazier or become calm.
That's why it is hard to understand life because you never know what it may bring. It's already the middle of October, and to confess, I don't even know how I got here. The year is on a speed I am still not clear on, and a lot of things just went in ways they shouldn't. Plans aren't met, health issues arise, and before I knew it, the year is almost at the end, and that is somewhat suffocating because I haven't even done half of what I had planned.
But does that mean I am not grateful? I sure am! I believe this year is one of the years I rested most, though I wasn't able to travel as much as I planned. Maybe at the beginning, traveling plans were met, but halfway, time just went faster than lightning, and it was just scary. I still have so much to do, and I believe a lot of us feel this way.
Frustrated, checking the calendar again and again and trying to meet up or even rush things so that we can be among the people that would say; “Oh, 2025? I did so much and accomplished a lot.” Yes! There's great beauty in accomplishments, but, sometimes, we just have to embrace how far we've come and continue with what we are doing. Not rushing, not pushing, and not letting frustrations rule our heart and mind.
Maybe for you it isn't the best advice and it is alright because it is for me. Truly, I haven't accomplished as much as I thought I would as there were just a lot of setbacks and giving up and nonchalant behavior that came from at a stage but that doesn't mean I haven't done well.
I know more than anyone that I have done so well, even if it seems I didn't. I know the challenges I have overcome, and even when it seems the year is almost over with me not having most of my plans worked out, I'll still say those words to myself.
“Balikis, you've done well. I am proud of the woman you've become. Thank you for being real. You are awesome.”
You can also say those words to yourself, not mine but yours. Appreciate yourself more. Look into the mirror and see the person you've become. Don't forget the battles you've fought and the things you've accomplished so far, especially the mundane ones.
If things didn't go well this year, there's always a next one as long as you are alive. It is never over as long as you are breathing. You never know, something incredible can even happen before the year ends, so hold onto yourself, breathe, let positive thoughts and emotions in and out, and appreciate everything you've done. Yes, time is moving fast, but you are still here, and that's all that matters.
Still yours truly,
Balikis.
Thanks for reading.
Peace be unto those who crave it and more to those who chase it away.